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We cooked the fish with oil and pine branches, then laid it on the kitchen table and pulled it apart with our hands. It was gritty and salty and not altogether descaled, but the oil and pine smoke flavored it enough. For dessert we ate the peanut butter, scraping the sides of the jar clean. The last of the gulls and kittiwakes were calling to each other, nesting for the night.

“You know, you could come to America,” I said.

“I don’t think my English is good enough.” He said it so quickly I knew he’d been thinking about it.

“Your English is fine. But come for a visit at least. Come see me in New York.”

“I could do that.”

Tiska was black now, and I wondered how late it was. I hadn’t seen a clock all day. It was a rare pleasure afforded by the village not to be governed by time, to eat when hungry and sleep when tired. And I was tired now—my stomach full, my muscles aching, and my mind warm and blurry.

I listened to Luka wonder aloud how migrating birds found their way back each season as we spread out our blankets and lay down on the floor, the tiles cool and hard against my stiff back. Through the gash in the roof we could see the sky, and we stretched our arms upward, tracing constellations. It calmed me, just like it had when we were small and hungry and scared of dying. Around the room the moon filled the shell marks in the walls with a pallid blue light, and they looked full again, like a home.



For my family,

and for A


Acknowledgments

There are many people without whom this book would not exist. Special thanks to:

My remarkable editor, David Ebershoff, who was exactly what this story needed, his assistant Caitlin McKenna, and everyone at Random House who worked to make this book a book. My agent, Kristina Moore, and the great people at Wylie. Friends and family in Zagreb and Pisak—Dubravka, Matea, Marin, Jo?ko, ?inko, Novak, and especially Darko—for sharing their stories with me. The many professors at Emerson College and Columbia University who supported me, particularly Jon Papernick, Jonathan Aaron, and Jay Neugeboren. My MFA colleagues, for enduring my incessant talk of this project, and for their friendship. Alan, for his keen editing eye and skilled hand-holding. Zach, for never letting me take myself too seriously. My family: my mother for putting a pen in my hand, my father for teaching me how to tell a story. My grandparents for thinking I was great before I’d done anything at all. And to Aly, who read this first.




ABOUT THE AUTHOR

SARA NOVI? was born in 1987 and has lived in the United States and Croatia. She recently graduated from the MFA program at Columbia University, where she studied fiction and translation. She is the fiction editor at Blunderbuss Magazine and teaches writing at the Fashion Institute of Technology and Columbia University. She lives in Queens, New York.

www.sara-novic.com

@NovicSara