Getting Played (Getting Some, #2)(39)

“Just so you know, I don’t think I’m qualified to be anyone’s dad, at least not yet. I’ve got a few months to whip my ass into shape for that. But for now, for you, I just . . . I want to be your friend, Jason.”

That soft confession melts my heart into a gooey mess of sweet, tender desire. From the jump, I thought that Dean was a good man—and he confirms it with every word out of his mouth. He’s smart and talented and funny—and let’s not forget the hot. So very, very hot.

Those glasses—holy hell—goodbye wild-boy drummer, hello sexy professor. The fantasies are instant and numerous. I want to lick every inch of him while he’s wearing those glasses.

“Would that be okay with you?”

“Yeah, friends would be good.”

“Cool.”

“Cool.”

How do you stop yourself from wanting a man who’s so damn wantable? And wanting Dean is just asking for trouble. It could make things messy and awkward between us. Simple is better. Easy. Keep the focus on the baby. Co-parenting and friendship.

That is all.

I need to keep my thoughts away from Dean’s gorgeous mouth, his sexy smile, his hands, his firm, oh-so-grabbable ass and especially—his cock. The beautiful dick that made me light up brighter than the Rockefeller Center Christmas tree. I’m pretty sure it’s ruined me for all other penises—including my best vibrator, Charles. Charles and I have had a few encounters since the summer—but it’s just not the same.

“The thing is . . .” Jason pauses, glancing around and lowering his voice like he’s telling a secret. “My mom’s used to doing things on her own. She says it’s easier that way. She’s never really had anyone to help her—nobody but me. But she deserves that. She deserves someone who’ll take care of her.” Jason turns to look at Dean. “As long as you do that—you and I will be A-okay.”

Dean puts his hand on my son’s shoulder and that soft, solemn tone comes back.

“Yeah, Jay—I can definitely do that.”

I’m in so, so, so much trouble.



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After Dean and Jaybird come in from outside, I show Dean around the house—the kitchen, the projects that are halfway finished, the bedroom where the nursery will be. An hour or so later, we end up in the den that’s still jam-packed with mismatched furniture and raw materials.

He sits in a taupe loveseat I salvaged from an estate sale that I plan to reupholster, his knees spread, one arm draped casually across the back. And he’s watching me. Tracking my every move as I flit around the room.

I unroll a bolt of plush silver faux fur fabric. “I’m going to use this for accent pillows in the living room. Maybe a throw rug or a beanbag chair. I like texture—it adds individuality to the space without overcomplicating it.”

I’m babbling—unnerved by the fluttery feeling in my stomach, brought on by the intensity of those ocean-blue eyes.

I take a breath and set the fabric down. “You’re not really interested in any of this, are you?”

His mouth curls at the corner—a decadent, dirty kind of smile.

“Oh, I’m interested. No doubt about that.”

Then he turns his head toward the boxes and stacks of paint cans.

“I think what you’ve done with the house is amazing, Lainey.” He gestures to a few long-necked, teal wine bottles that I’ve filled with solar twinkle lights. “I think what you do, how you can make something special out of nothing, is incredible. I’ve never met anybody like you—and that’s not a bullshit line.”

Dean rises from the couch and moves closer, looking into my eyes and pressing his hand against my stomach. The feel of his palm is warm and soothing—the kind of touch you want to sink into.

“Between your creativity and my brain and superior athletic skills, our kid is going to be all kinds of outstanding.”

Our kid.

It’s not a phrase I’m used to hearing, but I like the sound of it. And for the first time in ever, I let myself imagine how it could be to not do this alone. To have someone to share it all with.

The thought is really, really nice.

When you get used to carrying a weight around on your shoulders for so long, you don’t realize how heavy it actually is until it’s been lifted off.

I put my hand over Dean’s and smile. “Yeah.”

“Moooom!” Jason’s dragged-out voice cuts through the intimacy of the moment. “What’s for dinner?”

The question of teenage boys around the world.

Dean glances at his watch. “How about you and Jay come to my house for dinner? You can meet Grams. I have to pick her up from movie night at the senior center.”

That fluttery feeling plummets like an inner-tube on a waterslide—straight down.

“Grams?”

“My grandmother. My parents aren’t in the picture, I don’t have brothers or sisters. Grams raised me. She’s the only family I have.”

“Oh.” I tap my fingers on my stomach. “Does she know about the baby?”

“Not yet.”

“Don’t you think you should tell her first?”

He seems confused. “That’s what we’d be doing—telling her.”

Apparently, once Dean is on board with something, it’s full steam ahead. It must be the football coach in him—gotta move that ball down the field. Go, team, go.