Faking with Benefits : A Friends to Lovers Romance(125)

I nod slowly, curling my trembling fingers into fists. I know that. But it’s not approval I’m after.

I’m doing this for myself. Emery High School has featured in my nightmares for way, way too long. And I need to finally face it.

I take a deep breath. “No. I’m doing it.”

Without waiting for them to respond, I walk forward, pushing through the open doors and stepping inside the school.





The reunion is being held in the school gymnasium. The four of us follow a set of laminated signs tacked to the corridor walls until we reach the big sports hall. As soon as we walk inside, the familiar scent of sweat and disinfectant fills my nostrils, and I wrinkle my nose.

It’s like nothing has changed in the last ten years. There’s still the same pile of sweaty blue gym mats in one corner. The worn, stained vault horse. The walls of green lockers send my heart flying to my throat.

Someone has obviously tried to spruce up the hall for the event; a homemade banner reading WELCOME BACK ALUMNIS!!! is hanging wonkily from the ceiling. Pop music is playing from a set of speakers in one corner, and there’s a couple of cafeteria tables lined up on the linoleum, full of dire-looking snacks and stacks of paper cups.

I glance around, taking in the faces. It looks like most of my year is here. There are The Football Guys in badly fitting business suits. The Arty Girls in big earrings and long skirts. From the way everyone is laughing and chatting, it looks like a lot of people kept in touch with each other these last few years.

And once again, I’m on the outskirts, alone.

Nerves crunch me. Why am I doing this? I don’t want to be here. I feel hot and cold at the same time. At the back of my head, a voice tells me over and over again to run.

“Want a drink?” Luke asks in my ear, and I relax minutely. “If I remember correctly, they serve alcohol at these things.”

I let out a shaky breath. “For a twenty-pound entrance fee, they’d better,” I mutter, letting him take me by the hand and lead me over to the refreshment tables. As we walk through the hall, I feel people turning and staring. I try my best to ignore it as whispers go up around me.

“Is that Layla Thompson?”

“Is she with Mr Martins?”

“So she really was sleeping with him? I thought that was a rumour!”

I grit my teeth and ignore the comments as we walk past a cluster of girls staring and gossiping in hushed voices. They all look so different now. One of them is heavily pregnant. One is holding hands with a huge guy in a suit. One has pink hair and tattoos all up her arms. As we reach the refreshments table, there’s some more whispering and elbowing, and then one of the girls peels away from the group, making her way towards us. I recognise her immediately.

Emma Swann. The girl who threw all of my clothes out of the window on my last day at school.

She was the ringleader of all the girls who made fun of me. And now she’s standing here beaming, as if she didn’t once send around a class-wide text about me having crabs.

“Layla!” She exclaims loudly, all smiles. “I’m so glad to see you!”

“Emma!” I smile back at her blandly. “Look at you.”

She looks crap. I remember pining over her designer clothes back in school, but now, I can just see that she’s wearing a mishmash of labels that absolutely don’t match. I guess you can’t buy a sense of fashion.

“Cute, right?” She does a little twirl and a fake laugh, then bats her blonde lashes at Josh. He reaches out and untwists the strap of my bodysuit, completely ignoring her. “Yeah, I work for Paisley magazine right now. They give us loads of free clothes.”

“Never heard of it,” I tell her.

She blinks. “Oh, it’s, um. A fashion magazine. It’s pretty well known in London.”

“Is it?” I say flatly.

She waves me off. “But enough about me. You’ve obviously done well for yourself. I saw you in Couture Urban mag, I love their stuff.” She pauses. “Hey, I bet you’re going to London Fashion Week this year, right?”

I shrug. “Probably.” I’ve been to a few LFWs. They’re easy enough to get into if you have enough followers on social media.

She shimmies a bit closer to me, linking our arms. “Reckon you could get me and my boyfriend tickets? I’ve been dying to go to a show, but they’re all, like, invitation only, which blows.” She pouts.

I smile at her as sweetly as I can. “No.” I pull my arm out of hers.

She blinks. “What do you mean, no?”

“No,” I repeat. “I know you don’t hear the word very often, but surely you know what it means.”

She looks absolutely shocked. “But we’re friends,” she protests. “We used to be so close!”

“Did we?” I ask doubtfully.

“We used to sit together in Art, remember?”

I nod. “Yes. I remember us sitting together in Art for a whole ten minutes. Until I reached over you to pick up a paintbrush, and you started screaming about how I’d touched you and probably given you an STI. After which, I sat at my own table for the rest of the year, while you got to sit with your friends, just like you wanted.”

Luke startles behind me. “Emma? Is that true?”

Emma looks up at him with big eyes. “I… of course not, Mr Martins. I don’t know why she’d say that.”