Every Vow You Break(4)

It was his hand on her face, and not the words, that made what he’d said sound like he’d memorized a script, that caused her knees to go temporarily weak. He took her arm and they walked through the winding hallways of the inn to his room.

She never saw Zachary again, except in an episode of Law & Order: Special Victims Unit, and a terrible indie horror film called The Ghosting. The day after the wrap party Abigail went for a run with her friend Zoe and told her all about it. But what she really wanted to do was tell Todd; he was her friend, after all, and it seemed wrong that she couldn’t tell him about this momentous occasion.

She made a date with Todd to get lunch the following day, after his shift at the golf course, and she broke up with him, telling him she thought they should be single for their senior year of high school. He seemed somehow relieved.





CHAPTER 3

I’ve slept with four men,” Abigail said to the bearded guy whose name she still didn’t know. “And one woman. Does that count?”

“Sure,” he said.

“Not a huge number, I know,” she said.

“Probably about average.” He was pulling on a cardigan sweater, and Abigail wished she had her own extra layer. There were still embers in the firepit but any heat it gave off had diminished a while ago. Still, it was too perfect to consider going inside; the sky was a cluster of stars, and the air smelled of the lavender that bordered the patio. “I always heard,” he continued, “that when a man tells you how many women he’s slept with you should halve that number, and when a woman tells you how many men she’s slept with you should double it.”

“So you think I’ve slept with eight men?”

“And two women.”

“Right. And two women.”

“No, I don’t think that. I think you’re telling the truth.”

“I am, actually. I have nothing to lose. I’ll never see you again.”

“That’s probably true. A little sad, though.”

Abigail shifted forward in her cushioned Adirondack chair, to get closer to the ineffective fire.

“You’re cold?” the man said.

“A little bit. Not enough to go inside, though.”

“Want my sweater?”

Abigail found herself saying, “Yes. If you’re honestly offering.”

Before she was done talking, he’d pulled the sweater off and was handing it over to her. She noticed how thin and muscular he was under the tight-fitting flannel shirt. She pulled her arms through the still-warm sweater. One of the smoldering logs in the firepit popped loudly. Her phone buzzed again in her jeans. It was Kyra, checking in. U okay?

She wrote back: Fine. About to go to sleep. CU at breakfast?

There was a hotel right on the vineyard, twelve rooms, and that’s where the members of Abigail’s bachelorette party were staying. She had her own suite; Kyra was staying with Rachel, and Zoe was staying with her sister, Pam, who’d come down from Seattle.

“Why are you here, again?” Abigail asked, realizing as soon as she’d said it that she’d already asked him that question, maybe twice. She ran her tongue along her teeth, always a good test to see just how drunk she was.

“I’m at a ‘still a bachelor’ party for my friend Ron,” he said, making air quotes. “His engagement just broke off, and I’m here celebrating with him. He passed out about five hours ago.”

“Right. You told me that. And you’re from San Francisco and you’re an actor. See, I remember everything.”

“I’m an amateur actor, at a community theater, but I’m really a carpenter. That’s how I make my money.”

“Furniture-making,” Abigail said triumphantly.

“That’s right,” he said.

“Stick with that,” Abigail said. “There’s no future in the theater.”

She’d almost said furniture in the theater. She really was drunk.

“Why do you say that?”

“My parents ran a regional theater for twenty years, and it nearly broke them. It did break them, I mean … financially, for sure, and also emotionally. They went out of business two years ago and now they’ll be in debt for the rest of their lives. My father works at an AMC Theatre, and even though they still sort of live together, both of them tell me that they’re separating.”

“I’m sorry.”

“We’ll see if it takes,” Abigail said, aware that she sounded flippant, despite the fact she felt anything but. She’d been to her parents’ house recently, and they did seem to be living separate lives, her father having moved out, and her mother putting all her energy toward starting an art gallery with her best friend Patricia.

“But twenty years isn’t nothing. Running a business or being in a marriage. They did something they loved, or that I assume they loved, and they created art. It’s not … all about success or money.”

“No, it was never about money with them, but then it became all about the money, only because they didn’t have any. And maybe I’m just getting cynical, but I think of all those plays they produced each summer, and they’re just gone now, just some photographs and maybe a few hazy memories. It all added up to nothing. It makes me sad.”

“So, what do you do?”