Every Summer After(5)
“Listen, I have a favor to ask you,” said Charlie conspiratorially. Sam groaned from under his mop of sandy hair. “Some friends of mine are coming by tonight, and I thought Sam could hang out with you here while they’re over. He doesn’t have much of a social life, and you look about the same age,” he said, giving me a once-over.
“I’m thirteen,” I replied, glancing at Sam to see if he had an opinion on this proposal, but he was still examining the ground. Or maybe his submarine-size feet.
“Perrrrfect,” Charlie purred. “Sam’s thirteen, too. I’m fifteen,” he added proudly.
“Congratulations,” Sam muttered.
Charlie continued, “Anyway, Persephone . . .”
“Percy,” I interrupted with a burst. Charlie gave me a funny look. I laughed nervously and spun the friendship bracelet I wore around my wrist, explaining, “It’s Percy. Persephone is . . . too much name. And a bit pretentious.” Sam straightened up and looked at me then, scrunching his eyebrows and nose momentarily. His face was kind of ordinary, no feature especially memorable, except for his eyes, which were a shocking shade of sky blue.
“Percy it is,” Charlie agreed, but my attention was still on Sam, who watched me with his head tilted. Charlie cleared his throat. “So as I was saying, you’d be doing me a huge favor if you’d entertain my little brother for the evening.”
“Jesus,” Sam whispered at the same time I asked, “Entertain?” We blinked at each other. I shifted my weight on my feet, not sure what to say. It had been months since I’d offended Delilah Mason so fantastically that I no longer had any friends, months since I’d spent time with someone my age, but the last thing I wanted was for Sam to be forced to hang out with me. Before I could say so, he spoke up.
“You don’t have to if you don’t want.” He sounded apologetic. “He’s just trying to get rid of me because Mom’s not home.” Charlie belted him across the chest.
The truth was I wanted a friend more than I wanted my bangs to behave. If Sam was willing, I could use the company.
“I don’t mind,” I told him, adding with false confidence, “I mean, it is a huge imposition. So you can show me how to do one of those somersaults off the raft as payback.” He gave me a lopsided grin. It was a quiet smile, but it was a great smile, his blue eyes glinting like sea glass against his sunny skin.
I did that, I thought, a thrill running through me. I wanted to do it again.
3
Now
My teenage self wouldn’t believe it, but I don’t own a car. Back then, I was determined to have my own set of wheels so I could head north every weekend possible. These days, my life is confined to a leafy area in Toronto’s west end, where I live, and the city’s downtown core, where I work. I can get to the office, the gym, and my parents’ condo by either walking or public transit.
I have friends who haven’t ever bothered getting their license; they’re the kind of people who brag about never going north of Bloor Street. Their whole world is confined to a stylish little urban bubble, and they’re proud of it. Mine is, too, but sometimes I feel like I’m suffocating.
The truth is, the city hasn’t really felt like home since I was thirteen and fell in love with the lake and the cottage and the bush. Most of the time, though, I don’t let myself think about that. I don’t have time to. The world I’ve built for myself bursts with the trappings of urban busyness—the late hours at the office, the spin classes, and the many brunches. It’s how I like it. An overstuffed calendar brings me joy. But every so often I catch myself fantasizing about leaving the city—finding a small place on the water to write, working at a restaurant on the side to pay the bills—and my skin starts feeling too tight, like my life doesn’t fit.
This would surprise pretty much everyone I know. I’m a thirty-year-old woman who mostly has her shit together. My apartment is the top floor of a big house in Roncesvalles, a Polish neighborhood where you can still find a decent enough pierogi. The space is striking, with exposed beams and slanting ceilings, and, sure, it’s tiny, but a full one-bedroom in this part of the city doesn’t come cheap, and my salary at Shelter magazine is . . . modest. Okay, it’s crap. But that’s typical of media jobs, and while my pay may be small, my job is a big one.
I’ve worked at Shelter for four years, climbing steadily up the ranks from lowly editorial assistant to senior editor. That puts me in a position of power, assigning stories and overseeing photo shoots at the country’s biggest decor magazine. Thanks in large part to my efforts, we have amassed a dedicated following on social media and a huge online audience. It’s work that I love and that I’m good at, and at Shelter’s fortieth-anniversary bash, the magazine’s editor in chief, Brenda, credited me with bringing the publication into the digital era. It was a career highlight.
Being an editor is the kind of job that people think is extremely glamorous. It looks fast and flashy, though if I’m being honest, it mostly involves sitting in a cubicle all day, googling synonyms for minimalist. But there are product launches to attend and lunches to be shared with up-and-coming designers. It’s also the kind of job that hotshot corporate lawyers and social-climbing bankers swipe right on, which has proved useful in finding dates to join me on the cocktail party circuit. And there are perks, like press trips and open champagne bars, and an obscene amount of free stuff. There’s also an endless flow of industry gossip for Chantal and me to chew over, our favorite way to pass a Thursday evening. (And my mom never tires of seeing Persephone Fraser in print on the magazine’s masthead.)