Cleopatra and Frankenstein(123)



Even though it’s getting cold, we take the ferry to Rockaway to watch the sunset. From that distance, the whole city is one big reflection of the sky. Pink skyscrapers like temples of Himalayan salt. It looks like a mythical city for the gods, which in some ways it is.

“The ferry is really just the public bus with a better view,” I say.

“That’s what I love about you,” says Frank. “Cynical even in front of sunsets.”

*

I go to the Rose Reading Room in the New York Public Library to work. Aside from the squeaky chairs, it is writer’s heaven. In fact, the heavens are quite literally painted on the ceiling above. Powdery blue skies and soapy clouds. I sit at one of the long mahogany tables dotted with emerald reading lamps and smile at my fellow workers. Who knows how many hit shows and best-selling novels have been written within these book-lined walls? I’m just getting into my flow when a man sits down across from me, opens an encyclopedia on his lap, and begins furiously masturbating beneath it.

*

Frank lets me use a spare conference room at the agency to write. At least this way, he says, the only person I have to worry about masturbating in front of me is him.

*

The best part of this new arrangement is that Jacky and I can go to lunch again.

“So, you’re banging the boss,” she says as we sit down at the diner. “Dish.”

“We’re not banging,” I say. “We’re dating.”

“How high school of you,” she says. “Let’s be bad and share some fries.”

I take a deep breath. “Actually, in high school I dated a forty-year-old man,” I say. “He used to make me do things like wash his laundry and swallow his cum.” I exhale. “It was not great.”

Jacky leans toward me over our huge sticky diner menus. “Oh hon,” she says. “One spring break in high school I got drunk, and a group of seniors locked me and another boy in a hotel closet and told me they’d give me a hundred bucks if they could watch me give him a blowjob.”

“That’s awful,” I say. “Did you do it?”

She shrugs sadly. “I liked one of the boys who was outside the door, and I thought … I don’t know what I thought. I was sixteen and a hundred and ten pounds and had just discovered the Long Island iced tea.”

She takes my hand across the table and squeezes.

“I’m really sorry that happened to you, Jacky,” I say.

“I’m sorry about you too.” She shakes her head. “Fuck that old man.”

“Well, he died in a lawn mower accident,” I say. “So there’s a happy ending at least.”

“God is not always just,” she says. “But he does have a sense of humor.”

Our server comes, and we order our salads and fries.

“And a chocolate shake for dipping.” Jacky winks at me. “I think we need it.”

We both lean back in our booth chairs and look at each other, smiling.

“Did you get the hundred bucks at least?” I ask.

“Oh yes, hon.” She laughs. “I took my girlfriends to Benihana for dinner. Those shrimp volcanos were worth it!”

*

The leaves have turned, I’m wearing a jacket, pumpkin spice is everywhere, and someone actually invited me to go apple picking. It is definitely, officially fall.

*

I’m waiting in line for coffee by Cooper Square and listening to the art school students in front of me talk.

“What happened with that guy, the Icelandic performance artist?” the first friend asks.

“We broke up.”

“How come?”

“He slept in a Victorian nightgown, had a baby called Jean-Pepe with his lesbian neighbors, and yelled ‘Look me in the eye!’ every time he came.”

“So … How come?” asks the first friend.

*

Frank has been sober ninety days. We still haven’t slept together. He wants to wait, and I don’t mind. I figure I’ve waited long enough for him. What’s a few more months? We celebrate the best way I know how with someone both celibate and abstinent. Illegal fireworks.

*

I can’t believe it, but my agent liked the new episodes. She’s pitching them to an animation studio in Japan. Japan!

*

Turns out, my father has left me some money. It’s not much, but it’s enough for me to move out of New Jersey and get a place of my own in the city. Now all I have to do is find an apartment and a way to tell my mother I’m moving out. I wonder if I could get breaking the news to her included in the broker’s fee?

*

Frank and I spend a Sunday looking around open houses downtown.

“These all look like apartments people have been murdered in,” he whispers to me.

“I think the ‘natural death’ apartments are out of my price range,” I say.

“A few months in one of these dumps, and you won’t have to worry about that,” he says. “Because you’ll have hung yourself from the ceiling.”

“Don’t be ridiculous,” I say. “None of these places have high enough ceilings for that.”

“I think I could find us a place with higher ceilings than this,” he says.

“Us?” I say.

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