Book Lovers(44)

“I have an intense nighttime skin care routine. I don’t like to miss it, and it doesn’t all fit in a handbag.” My mom used to say, You can’t control the passage of time, but you can soften its blow to your face.

His head cocks to one side as he considers my half-truth of an answer. “So how’d you end up here with Blake? Throw a dart at a phone book?”

“Have you heard of MOM?”

“That woman who works at the bookstore?” Charlie deadpans. “I think so. Why?”

“The dating app.” I smack the bar as the realization hits me. “Do you think that’s why they named it that? So you could be like, Mom set me up?”

Charlie balks. “I would never go out with someone Sally set me up with.”

“Your mom thinks I’m gorgeous,” I remind him.

“I’m aware,” he says.

“I guess we’ve already established that you wouldn’t date me though,” I say.

His brow lifts, tugging at one corner of his mouth. “Oh, we’re going to do this now?” He fails to hide a pouty smirk behind his beer bottle. As he sips, the crease under his lip deepens, and my insides start fizzing.

“Do what?”

“The thing where we pretend I rejected you.”

“You exactly rejected me,” I say.

“You said wait,” he challenges.

“Yes, and you apparently heard I’m going to tase you in the crotch.”

“You said it was a mistake,” he says. “Fervently.”

“You said that first!” I say.

He snorts. “We both know”—the woman between us has finally left, and Charlie slides onto her abandoned seat—“all that was for you was a checked box on your extremely depressing list, and that’s not a game I’m interested in playing, Nora.”

“Oh, please. You don’t even qualify for the list. You’re as city-person as it gets.” Immediately I regret saying it. I could’ve pretended the kiss was calculated; now he knows I just wanted it.

The way his beer bottle pauses against his parted lips, like I’ve caught him off guard, almost makes it worth it. Whatever game we are playing, I’ve won another round: the prize is his chagrined expression.

He sets his bottle down, scratches his eyebrow. “I’ll let you get back to your date.”

I check my phone. Libby has replied: Headed home. I won’t wait up for you. She had the audacity to include a winky face.

I look up, and Charlie’s watching me. “Is there a way out of here,” I ask, “that doesn’t take me past Blake?”

He studies me for a beat and says dryly, “Nora Stephens, MOM is not going to be happy with you.” Then he holds his hand out. “Back door.”



* * *





Charlie tugs me away through the crowd and behind the bar, and we duck through a narrow door into the kitchen, only to be immediately cut off.

“Hey! You can’t—” the pretty bartender cries, throwing her arms out to her sides. She clocks Charlie and flushes. Somehow it makes her even prettier.

“Amaya,” Charlie says. He’s gone a little more rigid, like he’s just remembered he has a body and every muscle in it has tightened reflexively.

I’ve been thinking of Amaya’s smile—and her tone with Charlie—as flirty, but that was before I knew their history. Now when that smile makes an appearance, I parse out shades of hurt and hesitancy, a wispy beam of hope shining through it all.

Charlie clears his throat, his fingers twitching around mine. Amaya’s gaze judders toward the motion, and just like that, my face is on fire too.

“We need the back door,” Charlie says, apologetic. “Blake Carlisle thinks he’s on a date with this woman.”

Her eyes flicker between us again. After a moment of weighing her options, she sighs and steps aside. “Just this once. We’re really not supposed to let anyone back here.”

“Thanks.” He nods, but doesn’t move for a second. Probably too stunned by the return of her brilliant, hopeful, I-still-love-you smile. “Thanks,” he says again, and leads the way through the door. Out in the alleyway, the air feels cool and dry, and with the sudden rush of oxygen to my brain, I remember to jerk my hand from his. “Well, that was awkward.”

“What?”

I cut him a glance. “Your jilted lover and her X-ray vision.”

“She wasn’t jilted. And as far as I know, she has no superpowers.”

“Well, maybe she wasn’t jilted,” I say, “but she’s hung up.”

“You’re misinformed,” he says.

“You’re clueless,” I say.

“Trust me,” he says, leading me to the cross street. “The way things ended left no room for hang-ups.”

“She looked haunted, Charlie.”

“She heard Blake Carlisle’s name,” he replies. “How else was she supposed to look?”

“So Blake has a reputation.”

“It’s a small town,” Charlie says. “Everyone has a reputation.”

“What’s yours?”

His gaze slices toward me, brow lifting and jaw muscles leaping. “Probably whatever you think it is.”