Blade of Secrets (Bladesmith #1)(15)

I don’t recognize him from this angle, but that’s not saying much. I hardly know anyone in the city, because I never leave my forge if I can help it.

The man lifts his head heavenward, as though to ask the Sister Goddesses just what the world has come to.

Then he turns, facing my forge, his eyes meeting something above the line of windows.

And I nearly drop my hammer.

Because the man, whoever he is, is—is beautiful.

There’s no other word for him.

He’s tall—a whole head over me. Golden-red locks hang down to his shoulders, the top half secured in a band at the back of his head. The shade is unlike anything I’ve ever seen. He wears an impressive longsword on his back. Not one of mine, but the sheer size of it is a testament to his strength.

Though his figure is intimidating, there’s something about his face that belies that. His features are smooth, gentle almost. So inviting.

And very pleasing to the eye.

I don’t know what’s happening. I feel like something’s been lodged in my throat. I can’t stop staring at the stranger, and liquid heat seems to be moving through my veins.

I almost want to …

I want to touch him.

I’m startled by the unfamiliar thought almost as much as I am by the fact that I’ve inadvertently whispered the words aloud.

A flare of heat hits me from below. Confusion and wariness and some powerful unfamiliar feeling all battle for dominance within me. But the broadsword demands my attention.

It’s … pulsing.

But in the time it takes me to draw my next breath, it stops, and the temperature spike disappears. I look back out the window to find the man moving on.

I just stand there, breathing. But I can see the red-haired man in my vision perfectly, and another wave of heat that has nothing to do with the sword rolls through me.

What is this?

The faintest sprinkling of magic pulls on me from below, and I force myself to wipe the stranger from my memory.

I consider the weapon carefully. It’s as if I’ve started the magicking process but not finished it. What was it I’d said right before the weapon pulsed?

“I—I want to touch him,” I repeat, my cheeks heating.

Nothing happens.

I raise my hammer and bring it down against the hot metal, but before the two can meet, the hammer bounces back up, despite not quite making contact. Intrigued, I try again.

It’s resisting my blows.

Now why would it do that?

All right. What I’d done was say something about the man who wandered past my windows. Perhaps if I try that again?

“He’s quite tall,” I whisper. “With beautiful hair.”

Nothing happens. No pulse of heat.

So it wasn’t talking specifically about the man that did it.

“It’s hot in here,” I say, trying for another fact, but that obviously does nothing for the sword.

Think harder.

What I’d done was whisper a thought I had aloud. I told it to the blade.

No, not just any thought.

A private thought.

A secret.

“After Temra goes to bed, I sometimes sneak extra sweets from storage.”

The blade glows white, and a flare of heat rises like before.

Thrilled, I tell the sword more. “I wish I could be more like my sister. She’s so fearless and outgoing. I envy that.” I plunge the sword back into the fire to make the steel more pliable. More prepared for my secrets.

“She doesn’t remember Mother or Father. When she asks about them, I lie and say I don’t remember, either, because it’s too painful to talk about them.”

Weights lift from my shoulders as I unburden myself on the sword, whispering all the secrets I can think of. Nothing particularly scandalous. I don’t get out enough for that, but I tell it the secrets of my mind.

“I worry all the time that I haven’t done a good enough job raising Temra. She deserves her mother, not me.”

The secrets of my heart.

“I wish I weren’t so alone. I love my sister, but sometimes I long for more. A partner. Someone to spend my life with. But I’ve never felt strongly about anyone. I’ve never even felt attracted to anyone.”

At that word, the handsome stranger blazes in my memory. I realize all at once what I’d been feeling when I saw him.

Attraction.

Goddesses, is that what it feels like?

Why now? Why him?

But the sword isn’t done with me yet. I can feel it. So I press on.

“I would rather die than talk to a stranger one-on-one. I can build the fiercest weapons the world has ever seen, but force me to talk about something other than weaponry with people I don’t know, and I won’t survive. But I long to have someone in my life. Someone to share my burdens with. Someone to love.”

The secrets of my soul.

“I want my parents back so fiercely. If I ever find out who murdered them, I will kill them myself.”

That one surprises me, even as I say it. Because it’s true.

I abhor violence. I make my magical weapons to discourage violence. Only a fool would cross swords with a magical blade.

And yet, if I were to learn who took my parents from me, all those beliefs about violence would go right out the window.

Truth after truth spills from my lips, rushing out of me and into the sword. I don’t know how long I stand there. Hours maybe? But my voice turns raspy, the flames die down, and my mind feels so serene. As if the sword has taken the burden of my secrets upon itself.