Belladonna (Belladonna #1)(35)

Too late she realized that even in this state, Elijah was the one steering this conversation. “Had I felt like there was a choice, I would have never taken another ward.” He looked not at her but to the pieces laid before him, like he was sorting out his own puzzle.

Signa was taken by surprise at the bitter sting she felt at his words. It made sense Elijah wouldn’t have wanted her—she came with too much baggage, and for someone with such wealth, there was no benefit for Thorn Grove to take her in. Still, hearing it aloud hurt more than she cared to admit.

“There is a cleverness in your eyes, girl,” Elijah said. “You are not so dense to realize that I am a man who wouldn’t remember to put on my coat if I didn’t have someone to do it for me. A day here is enough for you to know, I’m sure, that my wife is gone and my daughter not so far behind. And my son—God, my son. I’ve failed the poor boy in too many ways. Yet, had my Lillian known of your situation when your grandmother passed, she’d have demanded we take you in. It was a misfortune that we were unaware until recently, for she would have given you a wonderful life. That was her way, God rest her soul. She took in whoever, and she would love them. In her memory, I had no choice but to bring you here.”

Elijah’s jaw snapped shut, as if deciding he’d spoken too much on the topic. A shadow crossed his face, and he let Signa capture two of his pieces.

“I’ve gone nineteen years without a parent, sir,” she told him. “I’ve no interest in obtaining one now. I am grateful for what you’ve provided, and for me, that is enough. I am quite well suited to being on my own.”

To her surprise, Elijah laughed. It was a quiet sound, little more than a hiss of air. “I used to believe that, too.”

Signa had no chance to say anything more, for Elijah cleared the board with one final move. Her mouth gaped open as he captured every one of her remaining pieces in one fluid stride. “Those who play a defensive game of checkers will always lose.” He didn’t wait for her to stand. Didn’t offer a hand to help her up. “Good night, Signa. I pray that sleep will find us well, and that we do not meet here again tomorrow night.”

It seemed that if she was going to meet up with Sylas after hours again, she’d need to find another tunnel. That, or perhaps learn to walk through the walls after all. Signa waited, staring at the board and retracing her moves until the sound of Elijah’s footsteps disappeared. When they did, she headed up the stairs.

To the surprise of her poor heart, she found she was not alone. Percy sat on the top step. Had his hair not been bright as a flame, she might have tripped over him in the darkness.

“Percy!” She clutched her chest. “What are you doing?”

“I didn’t mean to frighten you.” His voice was a low whisper. “I was coming down for a drink when I heard the two of you, and I just… Forgive me for eavesdropping. It’s been so long since my father and I had a real conversation. I’d nearly forgotten him capable of it.” His shoulders caved inward like a wilting flower. “That was her favorite room, you know. That’s the reason he goes in there so often. This house has always been so strange and dreary, and she wanted a space that felt entirely her own. Father fought her on the color for the longest time—he hated the yellow. But my mother was always good about getting her way. Sometimes I see him in there just staring at the walls, remembering.”

Signa could almost picture Lillian gliding through the halls, taking tea in the parlor and mulling over the decor. It seemed like she had such a different life—such a different family—than the one Signa was coming to know. “Do you ever speak with him?” she asked, heart heavy. It seemed to her that, though he might refute it, Elijah was in great need of company.

Percy’s face soured. “My father wasn’t often around. Marjorie gave me my lessons, and Uncle Byron taught me to be a gentleman. My father and I only ever spoke of two things—the business I would one day run and my obligation to keep up appearances and maintain the status of the family. For twenty-two years that was our connection. And now he has severed it with no explanation. So no, we no longer talk, for we don’t even know each other.”

It took a moment before Signa could respond. As someone with a different and overall frustrating experience with death, she took a great deal of care with her words. “Grief is a strange thing, Percy, for no two people experience it the same.” It was a foreign thing, to have someone to comfort. She didn’t know if what she was doing was right as she reached out and set her hand upon his; she knew only that this was what she’d always wanted for herself. For someone to sit with her and take her hand, and to know that they were there for her.

Percy needed someone—it was clear in the way he glared at the floor, and the slump of his shoulders—and Signa was glad to be that person for him. She took a seat beside him, patting his hand gently as she said, “I’m sorry for what you’re going through. It sounds like he loved your mother very much.”

He stared down at her hand with a frown. “More than anything or anyone. But that doesn’t give him an excuse to disappear when the rest of us still need him.”

Signa understood all too well. She’d spent years watching everyone she knew become ghosts—even those who were still living. “It doesn’t,” she agreed. “But he is a smart man, and I believe he’ll find his way back to you. He may simply need more time.”