Before I Let Go (Skyland #1)(50)

Evren groaned before cursing under his breath, and his hands tightened against me. He moved in the water, taking us farther into the cave, and I could do nothing but hold on to him and grind my body against him in desperation.

He lifted me and turned me until my chest pressed against the cold boulder. His fingers trailed down my spine and left chill bumps in their wake.

His hand moved around my waist, slowly tracing over every inch of skin he could find before they trailed over my hip bone and pressed against the lace of my undergarments.

“I have never wanted anyone more than I want you,” he whispered against the back of my neck. “Never thought of anyone, went crazy over anyone, you're all I can see.”

His fingers pushed into my undergarments, and he groaned when they met my sex.

His fingers slid over my nub, and I hissed out a breath as pleasure coursed through me. He pressed his lips to my shoulder and laid a soft kiss there as his fingers pushed harder against me.

“Does anyone else know about this cave?” I tried to look behind me, but he had my body pinned with his.

“It doesn't matter.” His teeth grazed against my shoulder. “The entire Blood army could squeeze through those rocks, and they wouldn't be able to stop me from having you.”

His hand slid lower until he pushed a finger inside of me, and I held on to the rock in front of me as my knees trembled.

“You're so fucking tight like this.” He groaned against my neck. “Just imagine if this was my cock. Imagine how full you're going to feel with me inside of you.”

My stomach was tight and my heart was racing, and all I could think about was wanting more. No matter what Evren gave me, it would never be enough. I always wanted more from him.

He slowly pumped his hand in and out of me while his palm pressed firmly against my aching nub. His other hand moved up my body slowly, until he wrapped his fingers around my neck and pulled me back into him. I gasped as he turned my face to meet his and nibbled on my bottom lip.

His hand moved faster and faster, and pleasure raced through me along with something else. Something more that was digging its claws into my chest and refusing to let go.

My magic writhed inside of me, begging for his touch, and I couldn't stop the next words that were falling from my lips, “I hated you for leaving.” I breathed against his mouth, and his breath rushed out against me. “I was so damn scared when Jorah’s report came back that Queen Kaida knew of your treason. I was so damn scared that you would never return.”

“I know.” He nodded against me, and my chest shook with every emotion that flowed through me. Evren pressed his nose against my skin and took a deep breath. “Trust me, princess. The thought of never coming back to you ate away at me. I have never been so fearful of my duty before.”

I whimpered as his hand continued to move against me, and he grazed his teeth against my shoulder.

“Why did you lose the game?” His hand was driving me crazy, and I could barely think, but I needed to know. I need to know what was going through his head.

“You know why I lost. I don't want to be the man that you think I am. I don't want to be anything like my brother.” His palm pressed harder against me and slowed down in speed as he pumped his fingers in harder and harder. “If you stay here, princess. If you decide to take my hand, I want you to do it with your own free will. Not because someone else promised you away or because I won a stupid fucking bet. I want you to want to stay here with me.”

I reached behind me, gripping my fingers into the hair on the back of his neck, and I held on to him as I started to fall apart. My body trembled from the work of his hands and the truth of his words. His truth both settled me and put me further on edge.

But it was his actions that scared me the most. They showed me that he was the man I thought he was before his duty forced him to betray me. He had chosen the duty to his kingdom over his mate, or at least I thought he had, but the reality was that I was far safer in Evren’s hands. I was exactly where I wanted to be even though he had taken that choice away from me.

Now he was giving it back.

“Evren,” I called out his name as my body tightened against him. I was so close to the edge, so close to falling, and I felt like I was always on this precipice with him. Just the smallest push would throw me over the edge, but I was always so scared to fall.

“Let go,” Evren murmured against my neck where he ran his tongue over my pulse point. “Be a good girl and let go.”

As soon as the words fell from his lips, I had no choice but to give him exactly what he wanted. My thighs clamped down around his hand as my body trembled, and I cried out as my pleasure rushed through me and mixed with my magic.

“That's it.” Evren’s hand moved slowly against me, coaxing out every ounce of pleasure my body had to give. “Give me exactly what's mine.”

He continued to kiss me. His mouth running over every inch of my skin, down my back and over my star marks, all while I came down from the pleasure that was soaring through me.

I pushed off the rock and turned toward him. I wrapped my arms around his neck before his mouth met my own. I kissed him hard, desperately, and I didn't know what I was searching for, but my chest ached as his hands gripped my skin and searched over me. He kissed me back with just as much desperation, and the pleasure he had just given me did nothing to take the edge off my want for him.