Archer's Voice(15)
As I stood there thinking about it, something occurred to me. I had meant to ask Archer if he knew sign, but in my awkwardness, I had forgotten. And then he brought out that stupid pad of paper. But it was now that I realized, Archer Hale had never once watched my lips as I talked. He had watched my eyes.
I turned around and walked back through his gate, marching back down to the woodpile behind his house, Phoebe still in my arms.
He was standing there, holding the axe in his hands, a piece of wood standing upright on the stump, but he wasn't swinging. He was just staring at it, a small frown on his face, looking deep in thought. And when he spotted me, a look of surprise flashed over his face before his eyes settled into that same narrow wariness.
When Phoebe saw him, she started yapping and panting again.
"You're not deaf," I said. "You can hear just fine."
He remained still for a minute, but then he stuck his axe in the stump, walked past me and looked back in the same way he had done the first time, gesturing to me to follow him. I did.
He walked through the door of his house and again emerged with the same pad and pen in his hands.
After a minute, he held the pad up:
I DIDN'T TELL YOU I WAS DEAF.
I paused. "No, you didn't," I said softly. "But you can't speak?"
He looked at me and then brought the pad up and wrote for half a minute and then turned it toward me:
I CAN SPEAK. I JUST LIKE TO SHOW OFF MY NICE PENMANSHIP.
I stared at the words, digesting them, furrowing my brow and then looked up at his face. "Is that you being funny?" I asked, still frowning.
He raised his brows.
"Right," I said, tilting my head. "Well, you might want to work on that."
We stood there staring at each other for a few seconds, when he sighed heavily, brought the pad of paper up again and wrote:
IS THERE SOMETHING ELSE YOU WANT?
I looked up at him. "I know sign language," I said. "I could teach you. I mean, you wouldn't get to show off your penmanship, haha, but it's a quicker way to communicate." I smiled, hopeful, trying to make him smile too. Did he smile? Was he even capable?
He stared at me for several beats before he placed the pad and pen down gently on the ground next to him, straightened up, brought his hands up and signed, I already know sign language.
I startled slightly, and a lump came to my throat. No one had signed to me for over six months and it brought my dad, the feel of my dad's presence, front and center.
"Oh," I breathed out, using my voice because Phoebe was in my arms. "Right. You must have talked to your uncle that way."
He frowned, probably wondering how I knew about his uncle at all, but he didn't ask. Finally, he signed, No.
I blinked at him, and after a minute cleared my throat. "No?" I asked.
No, he repeated.
Silence again.
I exhaled. "Well, I know it sounds kind of stupid, but I thought maybe we could be… friends." I shrugged, letting out an uncomfortable laugh.
Archer narrowed his eyes again but just looked at me, not even writing anything down.
I looked between him and the pad, but when it became clear that he wasn't going to "say" anything, I whispered, "Everyone needs friends." Everyone needs friends? Really, Bree? Good grief, you sound pathetic.
He kept looking at me.
I sighed, feeling embarrassed again, but also disappointed. "Okay, well suit yourself, I guess. I'll just go now." Truly, why was I disappointed? Travis had been right–this guy just didn’t respond to niceties.
He stared at me unmoving, his deep, whiskey-colored eyes flaring as I began to back away. I wanted to move all that shaggy hair out of his face and get rid of the facial hair so I could really see what he looked like. He really did seem to have a nice face under all the shaggy scruff.
I sighed heavily. "Okay. Well, then, I guess I'll be on my way…" Just shut up already, Bree and GO. Clearly this person wants nothing to do with you.
I felt his eyes following me as I turned and walked up the driveway and out his gate, this time shutting it firmly behind me. I leaned against it for a minute, scratching absently under Phoebe's chin, wondering what was wrong with me. What had been the point of all that? Why hadn't I just gotten my damn dog and left?
"Damn dog," I said to Phoebe, scratching her more. She licked at my face, ruffing lightly. I laughed and kissed her back.
As I got on my bike and started riding away, I heard the chopping begin again.
CHAPTER 6
Archer – 7 years old, May
Where was I?
I felt like I was swimming upwards in the pool at the YMCA, the top of the water miles and miles away. Noises started up in my ears and there was a pain in my neck, almost like a really bad sore throat that was both on the inside and the outside. I tried to remember how I'd gotten hurt, but only shadows moved around my head. I pushed them away.
Where was I?
Mama? I wanted my mama.
I felt the tears, hot and heavy, leak out of my closed eyes, down my cheeks. I tried not to cry. Strong men shouldn't cry. Strong men should protect others, like my uncle Connor. Only he had cried. He had cried so hard, yelling up at the sky and falling to his knees right there on the pavement.
Oh no. Oh no. Don't think about that.