A Shade Of Vampire 4: A Shadow Of Light(28)

“It’s beautiful,” I managed to choke out. “Thank you, Yuri. I will treasure it forever, but I can’t keep it. I’m sorry.”

I knew that should the Duke find it, and I had no delusions about being able to hide it from him, it might as well be my death. I shuddered at the mere thought of what he would put me through for simply possessing such an item.

Shaking, I quickly returned the gift to Yuri. No words could explain how much it was tearing me apart to do so. “Please understand… I cannot keep this. I simply can’t.”

I knew from the expression on his face that he was hurt that I wouldn’t even take the gift from him, but what was I supposed to do? I couldn’t bear the thought of having to go through what the Duke put me through the last time. My body might still be able to handle it, but my mind would not.

Yuri took the piece of paper from me and nodded. “I understand.”

Do you? Do you really understand? I nodded my head toward him and began walking my way toward town. I expected him to leave me alone, but he didn’t. He stayed quite a distance behind me, but he walked with me every step of the way.

Even I couldn’t understand the profound effect that had on me. I was so grateful that he didn’t leave me alone, that in his own way, he helped me defy the Duke in the smallest way possible. The Duke couldn’t possibly punish me if Yuri chose to walk behind me the whole time.

I was wrong. The Duke still punished me, but not in the same way he had done the last time. He punished me in the worst possible way.

The moment I got back to the manor, the Duke told me to get dressed. He was going to present me to someone else that night. I wondered then if he had finally tired of me and if I was going to be one of the common whores in his brothel. He instructed me to prepare myself to be as beautiful and alluring as I possibly could. That was never a good sign.

I didn’t understand why he was doing this or what he had in store, but I knew without a doubt that I wasn’t going to like it.

Just before I was brought to the Duke’s client, the Duke put a mask on me.

“Keep it on until he’s had his way with you, do you understand? I will know if you disobey me…”

I nodded, though there was no way he could find out, I was too afraid of ever defying him. Upon seeing the man I was going to pleasure that night, I realized immediately why the Duke saw the mask as necessary. The “client” he gave me to was Yuri.

“You’re thinking about that boy again,” Ingrid said. She’d just returned from another one of her midnight rendezvous.

I wondered how she did it…how she was able to just shut off her love for Aiden. I knew I could do that, but I never dared. There were times when I had to push back any thoughts of Yuri—especially when I was with Ben, but I couldn’t do it for long. I craved Yuri’s company, his smile, his words and his presence.

I was enamored by Ingrid Maslen. There were so many things about her that appealed to my own desire for power and control, but something about her repelled me too. We were alike in so many ways—ruined by our past and feeling helpless to make good out of the ashes we rose up from. Staring at her that night, however, I realized that I didn’t want to be anything like her. I also knew that should I have continued in the direction I had been going, I’d turn up exactly like her.

I have so much to make up for.

I was determined that if I were given another chance, things would be different. I’m going to make it up to Yuri. I have to.

A knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. It was the young hunter, Zinnia.

“Aiden’s little princess wishes to see you,” she said with disdain. I was then brought to the suite they kept Sofia in.

“Claudia…” she greeted with a tentative smile. “Please have a seat.”

I could tell that she still wasn’t certain if I was friend or foe. I took my seat and waited for her to speak up. I felt vulnerable and unsure of myself.

“I’m going to escape soon. I was just allowed to see Ingrid and spend some time with her and well, she showed me a way out.”

My heart leapt, but from the expression on her face, I could immediately tell that she had no intention of bringing me with her.

“It’s too much of a risk to bring you with me, Claudia. They keep me locked up at night… The only way I can really sneak out is in broad daylight… I just… I don’t know how it would be possible to take you with me.”

“Sofia, if they leave me here, they’re going to kill me. You’re the only reason I’m still alive.”

“No.” She shook her head. “Ben is the reason they’re keeping you alive.”

“I need to get back to The Shade, Sofia… You of all people should understand why, considering that you have a man you love in there too.”

“I understand that, Claudia, and I promise that I will do everything in my power to get you back home once I’m already there. I know Derek. I know I can talk him into finding a way to get you back.”

I tried to smile. I knew Sofia was sincere in her promise, but I also knew that no vampire who had entered hunter territory ever got out, with the exception of Derek. I doubted that I could ever be an exception. Still, I knew that something within me radically changed when I was able to tell Sofia, “I hope you succeed in your escape, Sofia. Don’t forget about me when you do.”