A Necessary Sin (The Sin Trilogy, #1)(36)

I wasn’t rough with her at all since I suspected she could be sore. I’m surprised she’s having discomfort. “The condoms may be irritating you. They do that sometimes.” I turn on the lamp. “Let me have a peek.”

I push her onto her back and she clamps her thighs closed. “No way. You can forget that.”

“You may be having an allergic reaction.”

“I don’t need you to look at my stuff for me to be sure this kind of swelling isn’t normal.” Her face is pained as she wiggles. “What would you say if I told you I didn’t want to use condoms anymore?”

I’m clean. She’s clean, and infertile, so I guess it would be all right. We’ve sort of already been together without one anyway, if you count the first time when the rubber busted. “I guess it’s okay if you’re one hundred percent positive you won’t get pregnant.”

“I’ve been evaluated by more than one doctor and they all agree a pregnancy won’t happen without extensive—and expensive—medical intervention.”

I want to know what’s wrong with her.

I guess wrong probably isn’t the best term to choose. I wouldn’t want her to say something wasn’t right with me because I have an amputation. Infertility is a medical condition. It doesn’t define her, just as this steel blade attached below my knee doesn’t define me.

“I’m up for doing it bare if that’s what you want.”

“You’ve claimed me so I guess that negates the conversation about sexual monogamy.” She quickly looks up at me. “That is absolutely nonnegotiable. Understand?”

I can’t think of a lass I’d want after having her. “I told you I wouldn’t be with another woman.”

“I know that’s what you said, but this is serious—like catching a disease kind of serious—so I feel like I need to stress the importance. Can you solemnly promise me there’ll be no one else?”

I twist around so I can face her. I stroke my hand down her cheek before kissing her quickly. “Aye, I swear you’ll be the only one.”

I return from the toilet and remove my blade, the one I wear around the house, before getting back into bed. Bleu moves over to rest her head on my chest. She touches the inked pattern on the inside of my upper arm using her fingertips. “I love this pattern. What does it mean?”

“It’s a Celtic shield knot. It’s symbolic of protection.”

“I thought it might be some kind of love knot you got for a girl,” she giggles.

I’m pondering Bleu’s romantic notion when my phone rings. I reach for it on the nightstand but feel compelled to clear her notions about my tattoo. “I assure you it wasn’t inspired by romantic ideas such as that.”

It’s Abram. He never calls on the weekend so I’m guessing something has happened. Dammit. Whatever it is will tear me away from spending the day with Bleu. Another day is hijacked. “Aye.”

“Your father tells me you have a lass, an American.”

I should have known Dad would tell him. “Aye.”

“I should meet the woman in the life of The Fellowship’s future superior. Bring her to my house for dinner tonight at seven.”

I wish I could refuse. “Of course.”

“We’ve been invited to dinner at my uncle’s.”

“Your father’s brother?”

“Aye, Abram.”

“I heard his name a lot at the bar. Is he ahead of you in line to take over?”

He wishes. “Abram can never be in the head leadership role. He was adopted and only a blood Breckenridge can become sovereign.”

“Was he adopted as a baby?”

“His parents were Fellowship but they were killed in a car accident. My granda always favored his father so he took Abram. I think he was around five.”

“Does he have children?”

“He’s Jamie’s father. He also has two daughters, Westlyn and Evanna.”

“Oh. Then y’all are cousins and best friends?”

“We are—known each other our entire lives.”

“I haven’t spent much time with Jamie. He doesn’t come into Duncan’s often.”

“He used to but he’s in the middle of his trainee rotation in trauma surgery. He stays busy with that and his studies.”

I see the surprise on her face. “I didn’t know Jamie was in medical school. Is he leaving The Fellowship?”

She doesn’t understand the dynamics of our brotherhood. No one leaves The Fellowship, not alive at least. “No. Trustworthy physicians are few and far between. There’s always an issue when a brother has an injury the infirmary is required to report to the authorities. You can see how that’s a problem. The Fellowship decided to send one of our own for medical training and Jamie volunteered. When he finishes his traineeship, he’ll come to work for us as a private physician. He’ll never work a day for the public.”

“You’re being trained to criminally defend the brotherhood, Jamie will treat them medically when things go awry, and Leith will get them drunk. I do believe the three of you are the perfect trifecta.”

Trifecta. That’s the perfect word to describe us.