A Mrs. Miracle Christmas(53)

From that time on she was it for me. It didn’t take me long to learn that she was intelligent and sensible, and had a great sense of humor. I was comfortable with her in ways I had never been with any other woman. I found I could talk to her with an ease that I’d never felt before, even with my sister.

    Okay, to be honest, it didn’t hurt that Josie was beautiful. I mean, her beauty was hard to deny. She had pretty eyes and she was just the right size, not too skinny. One thing Alicia taught me a long time ago was that women didn’t take kindly to men talking about their bodies. To top it all off, Josie was good at what she did, and the food at the lodge had never been better.

Jack Corcoran, the old geezer who supplied the game to the lodge, had started to eat dinner there nearly every night. We’d become friends over the years, and I would join him, something I hadn’t done much of in the past, until Josie’s arrival. The Brewsters, who owned and operated the Caribou Lake Lodge, noticed me stopping by for dinner, and guessed the reason for my more frequent visits. They purposefully set Josie’s schedule to give us more time together in the evenings, allowing me to introduce her to the beauty of Ponder and the Alaskan wilderness. I’d taken her hiking and searching for the Alaskan blueberry. We’d stumbled upon the low-bush cranberry as well and were able to pick enough for a wonderful sauce she’d used with moose meat. Just recently we’d lain under the stars and watched the Northern Lights flash-dance green highlights across the sky. Josie had gasped at their beauty. I barely noticed the wonder of it all, unable to take my eyes off her.

    We’d had such good times together, Josie and me. When Ponder held its annual fishing derby during the Fourth of July celebration, Josie, who had never fished before, caught the winning fish. Beginner’s luck, she claimed. I was thrilled for her.

Most of all, Josie and I enjoyed our short evening hikes. With up to twenty-two hours of daylight in the summer, there was always plenty of time to explore the tundra after she’d finished her duties at the lodge.

I found her company easy, which quickly led me to thinking about how good it would be if she made Ponder her home with me. I knew enough about Josie to realize we’d get along great; we already did. A man gets lonely and housebound when the weather reaches as low as fifty degrees below freezing. Now that I was closing in on my thirtieth birthday, it was time, as Alicia repeatedly reminded me, that I thought about marriage and starting a family of my own.

Jack didn’t want to see Josie leave, either. Jack had lived in the area for so long, he’d become part of the scenery. If you went to the dictionary and looked up the word sourdough, most likely you’d see a photo of Jack, not only because of his appearance, but because he was the legend behind the sourdough starter that kept all of Ponder in homemade bread year-round. In addition to supplying the wild game, Jack had been hired on at the lodge as a hunting guide. He took parties into the wilderness, camping two and three days at a time, giving tourists a real Alaskan experience. In his spare time, he panned for gold, although he’d never struck it rich the way he’d hoped to.

    Josie had wanted to try her hand at it, too, and we’d spent an entire day in a fruitless search. While we might not have dredged up any nuggets, I felt that I’d found my biggest treasure in her.

Jerry Brewster, who owned the lodge along with Marianne, his wife, specialized in fishing on the lake. When summer arrived, you’d find Jerry out on the water every day, as he knew all the best spots. The lake was a tributary of the Copper River, where some of the best salmon in the world could be found, and a great hunting area. Folks loved the expertise that both Jerry and Jack had, and paid a high price for the privilege of hunting and fishing with them. People would take the passenger ferry to get to and from the lodge during the fishing and hunting season—the only way in and out of Ponder unless you could afford a seaplane. Come winter, before the lake froze over, Jerry put the boat in storage, and those who were not going to stay for winter took the last passenger ferry out. After that, a ski-plane made infrequent stops at Ponder, landing on the frozen lake.

    With only a few businesses and families in the vicinity, we had everything a small wilderness town needed, including two taverns and two churches. The town balanced itself out that way, I suppose. I loved the peace and quiet and had made a good life for myself on beautiful Caribou Lake in the small town of Ponder.

“Have you listened to anything I’ve said?” Alicia asked.

“Uh…”

“That’s what I thought. In case you’ve forgotten, Josie is leaving for Seattle first thing in the morning.”

Like I’d forget what day it was. I’d started to ask Josie to marry me a dozen times or more in the last couple days but could never get out the words that I wanted to say. Now it was down to the last night, down to practically the last minute.

“I know.” Already I could feel the tension building up inside me.

“Are you seriously going to let her go?” my sister harped.

Much as I love Alicia and her two kids, I didn’t need her to remind me that the clock was ticking away when it came to Josie and me. Pressuring me to make my move wasn’t helping. Alicia was right about one thing, though. I shouldn’t have put it off as long as I had, but my rationale was simple: I was afraid, and with good reason. Josie had plans; she had a job waiting for her in Seattle. She had friends and family there as well. While I loved her and wanted to make her my wife, I wasn’t sure that was enough to convince her to stay. I’d put off popping the question until it was either propose now or watch her leave come morning.