A Marvellous Light (The Last Binding #1)(13)
Robin made himself consider the idea seriously. It was like trying to balance an egg on its point. “I thought you wanted a court presentation next year.”
“Maybe I want both.”
“Maudie—”
“Oh, the hell with it, Robin,” Maud exploded, “they’re gone,” and then shut her mouth and cast a stricken look at the half-open door.
Robin’s mind filled in the unsaid words: They’re not here to object. To insist that their only daughter follow the steppingstones of the peerage, schoolroom to social season to marriage, and not soil her hands or her mind with the enlarging independence of the middle class.
Never mind that the baronetcy of Thornley Hill was the barest scrape of landed nobility. Nor that the daughter of a baronet who’d stripped his estates to finance his city life was hardly a gem of eligibility.
“I know,” Robin said, feeling his resistance crumble at the lines between her eyes.
“You’ll think about it?”
“I’ll think about it.”
Maud nodded, bent to kiss his cheek in an uncharacteristic display of softness, and left again.
I’ll think about it. It wasn’t a lie. No more than “working at the Home Office” had been a lie. Robin didn’t lie to his sister.
On any other night he’d have cheerfully tried to smother himself with a pillow or recite Greek verbs in order to escape thinking about it, and about what the blazes he was going to do with the house—art and all—and how they were going to afford to pay their active servants, let alone pension off old ones. He had no idea about any of it. It would probably all work out, somehow, but in the meantime every conversation about the future felt like Robin’s brain was being kicked, and he hated it.
Oh, look at yourself, murmured an irrepressible part of Robin. Portrait of a sulky aristocrat in repose. Someone should paint him, indeed: lounging here among his grand belongings, drink in hand, weighed down by the dreadful woes of having both a well-paying job and a baronetcy.
He let out a soft chuckle at the absurdity of it and ran a hand over his face, then found himself rubbing the base of his port glass restlessly up and down his arm, over the magical tattoo. Or whatever it was. The entire attack had taken on the form of a photograph in his mind: vividly captured, but bled dry of colour. When Robin fumbled after the memory of his own fear, it was elusive. The man’s voice was not. He could hear its rough command.
The contract’s there.
Something that doesn’t belong.
Whatever Reggie Gatling had gotten himself involved in, it had closed itself over Robin as well, like a trap springing shut.
As he often did when fretting over something, Robin pulled his lighter from his pocket and turned it in his hand. He wasn’t tempted to go in search of cigarettes. Half the time he forgot the thing had a useful purpose. It was just a squared lump of gold, a comfort when he ran his thumb over the engraved R on its surface.
It was unpleasantly warm in the sitting room. Robin felt flushed, and small sparks of light danced at the edge of his vision; he tucked the lighter away, then loosened his collar and unbuttoned his waistcoat, but it didn’t settle. His next sip of port had an odd peppery edge to it and seemed to tingle at the edges of his tongue long after he swallowed.
Time stretched like rubber. Robin leaned forward in the chair, and frowned. And then— It was not like looking at a book, or a canvas, or even like sitting in the front row of the theatre so that the performance stretched to the very edge of your gaze. There was no sense of having a gaze. Or eyes, or any kind of body. There was just the image.
An enormous terraced garden at night, alight with lanterns and alive with a heady profusion of flowers. The skies above had the gentle murkiness of clouds, fading out from the glow of a hidden moon. Statues dotted stone balconies and silhouetted themselves against that glow. A large golden pheasant with a coloured riot of a tail scuttled across manicured lawns and disappeared beneath the shadows of a bush.
The image changed. A cave of some kind, dimly lit. A blond woman in a beaded dress the colour of strawberry fool was crying, her hair tumbling in disarray around her face, her hands moving through the cradling motions of a spell even as tears spilled down her cheeks.
Change. An interior view, up through a ceiling made of clear glass set in intricate shapes within a lead frame, like a huge stained glass window had been bleached of all hue and wedged here on its side. Shoes and shapes of people moved across the glass, busy as the King’s Cross main platform.
Change. A man sprawled across a bed, pale enough that the veins shone bluish through his bare skin, fair hair sticking to a sweat-slick brow and mouth forming unheard words or sounds of pleasure. He slurred one hand across his own face and grabbed vainly at a handful of sheets with the other. His back arched, lifting his chest. His eyes opened and his features cohered.
Edwin Courcey.
Robin jolted back to himself, half out of his chair and breathing like a man at the end of a ten-mile run. His glass of port had fallen to the ground; the rug had saved the glass, but the liquid had created a dark patch. His eyes smarted at the firelight for a few seconds before returning to normal.
He fumbled his cuff link off and his shirt to his elbow. The tattoo was unchanged. He’d half expected it to be moving, or changing colours. He didn’t know anything about any of this.
Edwin Courcey.
Robin shook his head as though he could rid it of the things he’d seen, not to mention the tendril of unexpected arousal that had curled itself around that delirious vision of Courcey: that canvas of sweat and abandon and bare collarbones. Robin rescued his port glass and stumbled over to the decanter to pour himself another. Until the triple-punch of today, he’d managed to get through twenty-five years of life without magic revealing itself to him. Anyone from that world was obviously expert at hiding their real selves when they wanted to, and the real Courcey had made it very clear that he saw Robin as an outsider and an inconvenience; possibly even a danger. Robin didn’t know him at all. He was Robin’s best hope of answers, but he couldn’t be trusted.