When the Heart Falls(133)

O.M.G. This can't be real. But—

Cade walks onto the stage, body hard and tanned, cocky grin on his face, and takes the microphone.

Jenifer squeals in my ear. "Is that Cade? Your Cade?"

I nod, too stunned to speak. That's my Cade all right.

His lilting Texas accent fills the room, his deep voice making me melt. "This is dedicated to everyone out there who's had some trouble with love. I know things may look hard right now. I know it may seem as if the passion has died down, and you're trying your best to just not hurt the other person. But remember that trying your best for someone, staying with them though things look hard, that's passion. That's love. Someone reminded me of that recently. Thank you, Winter Deveaux." He makes eye contact with me, then looks back at the crowd. "Now let's get this party started."

The crowd cheers, and I think of all the drooling females ogling him. The music starts playing. And Cade starts singing a fast rock/country song.

I can't believe this is really happening. With perfect pitch he captures the attention of the partiers, dancing and moving like a pro.

Pushing to the front of the room, I stand before the stage staring up at him. He comes to the edge and does a sexy dance, thrusting his hips forward, right at me. I nearly die.

When the song ends, his muscles slick with sweat, he bows and the crowd goes wild. "For this next one," he says, quieting the room, "I'd like the Ice Queen to join me." He looks down at me and holds out his hand.

What? No. No. No. I'm shaking my head, backing away, but I can't move. Too many people have crowded behind me.

He squats on his heels and reaches for me.

I lean back. "No. I can't."

People start to cheer. "Ice Queen. Ice Queen. Ice Queen!"

I can't believe they're actually cheering me. Cheering the Ice Queen. And not with derision, but with excitement.

Cade smiles and the room disappears. "Don't worry. I'll be right here."

Nodding, I grip his hand, and he pulls me on stage and steadies me. Again, the crowd cheers.

"I don't know what I'm doing." I whisper, hoping the microphone isn't picking up my voice. "I don't even know the song."

"You know it," Cade says. He waves at the band. "Maestro?"

Music blasts through the speakers, and I recognize the music immediately. The first song we slow danced to. The same song Cade's parents used to dance to.

Cade leads and I join in, harmonizing with him. Our voices fit together, smooth and clear. Mine like ice, his like fire, together we balance each other.

He pulls me against him as we sing, and we dance together on stage, singing to each other even as the crowd cheers.

During a musical interlude, Cade whispers in my ear. "I'm glad to be dancing to this song again. Thank you."

My heart bursts with emotion, my body alive with the feel of him, and I can't stop myself this time. I tilt my face up and use my hand on the back of his head to pull him closer to me, pressing my lips against his, tasting him again.

Locked together in a passionate embrace, the sound of the crowd chanting, "Ice Queen. Ice Queen. Ice Queen," fades out, and all I hear is our hearts beating in synch. I don't care what people say.

I am the Ice Queen.





CADE SAVAGE





CHAPTER 18





MAYBE IT'S THE weather, a bit dreary and wet, like the sky can't stop crying. Maybe I miss the heat and the sun and the essential Vitamin D it provides. Or maybe it's spending another week struggling in French. Whatever it is, my thoughts have turned dark as I wrestle with whether or not to read the letter once and for all. Time has smoothed out the envelope and given permanence to its folds and creases, but the glue that keeps its secrets sealed holds strong.

Since the phone call with my mom, the night I kissed Winter, I've sat with this letter nearly every night, weighing my choices. To read or not to read? To know or not to know? Would anyone really want to know? Would anyone really be able to resist the lure of knowledge gained?

My cell phone vibrates again, and I send the call to voicemail. It says Mom, but I know it's Dad. He's called twice a day since the Eiffel Tower, but I can't speak to him.

Because I don't know what to say, and I can't defend my choices to him if I don't know what they are. I don't want his guilt manipulating me into a decision I'll regret. This is a path I have to travel alone, to decide on alone.

My avoidance sounds noble, but it's not. At heart, I'm a coward, unable to face the truth of my past, unable to face my family, unable to decide the course of my life.

Indecision. The mortal flaw I share with Hamlet. It didn't end so well for him, and I fear a similar fate for myself.

I toy with the edges of the envelope and wonder if today I will face at least one ghost, but someone knocks at my door, and I shove the letter under my pillow. "Who is it?"

"Winter."

Her voice fills me with light, the kind that can scare away the demons in my heart, if only temporarily. I run a hand over my face and walk over to open the door.

In her blue sundress with exposed shoulders, Winter takes my breath away. The color suits her and reminds me of Bastille Day, of the sheer joy I felt for one night with her, no worries, no pressures, no future or past, just that moment. I wish I could capture that feeling and carry it with me always.