Unconditional (Masters and Mercenaries #5.5)(33)

It was so much easier to not think when he was topping her. All she had to do was let go and follow his very reasonable orders. She gripped his cock, already knowing what he liked. He preferred a firm grip. And she loved to hold that big hard-on in her hand, to feel the steel under all that soft skin.

“It’s for you.” He kissed her forehead while she worked his cock, an oddly sentimental gesture.

Did he know what she would already do for him? She was in so deep and she knew damn well she should pull away, but she couldn’t. Even after everything Trevor put her through, she couldn’t stop her stupid heart from falling for Keith. “I want you inside me, Sir.”

He was already inside her, but she wouldn’t tell him how much. He was a voice talking to her, giving her strength, replacing the crappy voices that told her all the things she couldn’t do. He was the one who told her she could do it. He told her she was worthy. Now he would tell her she was good. She couldn’t tell him how much he meant to her because he was nervous about the whole commitment thing. She wasn’t sure what had happened, but someone had done a number on him. She had to show him how nice it was to be together, and right now the only place she could do that was in Sanctum.

He kissed her again, pumping his cock against her palm. “I want you, too. I want you more than my next breath.”

He laid her out on the bed. The silky softness of the spread blanketed her tender backside. He stood over her, so strong and powerful and masculine.

And likely virile. Yeah, she’d learned that lesson. “Do we have a condom?”

His eyes went blank for a moment. “Ashley, I don’t….yeah, there has to be something here. These rooms are well equipped.” He opened the nightstand and came back with a little plastic packet.

“Did I say something wrong?” She didn’t like the way his eyes had dimmed, his mouth turning down. Something about her question had spooked him. “I’m sorry. I’m not on the pill. I haven’t had to be.”

He ripped the package open. “No problem, love, but I assure you I’m perfectly clean so let’s get you on the pill. I have zero intentions of sleeping with anyone else while we’re together.”

He rolled the condom on his dick and tossed his big body on the bed beside her.

Somehow, she’d thought he would attack her. He was on his back, stroking himself when he should be on top of her. She turned on her side. “Should I be doing something?”

His smile was back. “Ah, you surprise me every time. I suspected I would have at least three minutes until you got up the courage to ask.”

“You’re really underestimating my need to come.” Wow. That had just popped out of her mouth, but he didn’t seem to mind. In fact, he seemed to relax again.

“And you’re underestimating my need to show you how different I am. The other men took you, didn’t they? They spread your legs and f*cked you and then rolled right off.”

She sighed a little. He always had to talk. He talked about the sex and the feelings and shit. “There was only one guy, Keith. But it’s pretty much how you said it was. I didn’t like it. I was nineteen when I finally gave in and had sex with Trevor. He went away to college, but I would see him when he came home. I’m pretty sure now that he was probably screwing everything he could while he was away, but at the time I thought it was true love.”

Keith stared at her, intent in his eyes. “I want you to have sex with me because you want to. So you’re going to take me this first time. You’re going to go at your pace and show me how you like it.”

“But I don’t know how I like it.” And she couldn’t tell him that no matter how much she liked the sex, she wouldn’t be sleeping with him if she wasn’t falling for him. Deep down, no matter how she tried to change and grow, she feared she would always equate love and sex.

He pulled on her hand, tugging her up. “Then let’s find out. Come on, love. Have mercy on a man. I’m dying here.”

She slung her leg over, straddling his lean hips. From this vantage, she could watch his chest rise and fall, see the hot look in his eyes. Power. He was giving it to her. He was ceding control because he wanted her to learn something important. That she could take as well as give. That both were important in a relationship.

His cock was already straining against her flesh. Keith might be patient, but his cock seemed to be seeking a way in. She rolled her hips, letting it run along the seam of her labia, jutting up to hit her clit. The promise of pleasure sparked through her and she did it again and again, letting his cockhead rub her clit.

“You’re going to kill me,” Keith said, his jaw a tight line.

She flexed up slightly and his dick was suddenly at her entrance. So big. He was big and thick. His hands gripped her hips, helping her to lower herself down.

Inch by delicious inch, she took him inside. He stretched her, but she was so wet there was no pain, just an amazingly full feeling. She slid down and then back up, her * devouring his cock.

He watched, his head turned down. “It’s so f*cking hot.”

She couldn’t see, but she loved the fact that his eyes were on her, on the place where their bodies were made into one.

She couldn’t take the heat a second longer. She had to move. Gravity did its work and she slid down, taking his whole cock to the base.

“That’s right, love. Take all of me. Fuck me hard. I want it.”