Traveler (Traveler #1)(17)

No, I’m not.

It’s a pretty nice day, though. Founder’s Park is only four blocks away in that same direction, and I could sit on a bench in the crisp air and look at all the trees turning colors while I write. It’ll give me real-world inspiration.

With that half-formed thought in my head, I start walking. I find a good spot on a bench and yank my journal out of my bag, opening it to where I left off on my latest story, but of course, I have to thumb through a few pages to get there and doesn’t my stupid thumb land right on the page I shouldn’t be looking at.

Dark hair, green eyes.

I click the ballpoint on my pen a couple of times as I push past that page and find where I left off, and I put my pen to the paper almost hard enough to poke a hole in it. And I write.

I keep writing, glancing nervously at my phone—which is sitting on the bench next to me—at two-minute intervals. Finally, I slam the journal shut with a disgusted sound.

You are an idiot, Jessa. Just get it over with. Go to Mugsy’s. Just be done with it.

I shove everything back in my bag.

This is crazy, and I know it’s crazy.

I’m going anyway.





9

Through

I slide into the seat at Mugsy’s across from Finn at seventeen minutes after twelve, setting my bag down next to me, and then I stare at him, uncertain of what to say.

“Still freaked out?” he asks.

“What do you think?” I ask in a fierce whisper. “People don’t normally communicate between dreams and real life.”

“I told you … we have a different definition of ‘normal.’”

I gesture to the tall cup of coffee in front of me. “Is that supposed to be for me?”

Finn nods. “Caramel mocha with a dash of cinnamon.”

“How do you know that?”

“Because I know you, and most of the time, you order that—or something like it.”

“Most of the time?”

He takes a long drink. “I’ll get to that later. But first, you have to let me prove this to you.”

My eyes go wide, and I can feel my tightly clenched hands start to sweat.

“You mean … we’re going to do it? Travel?”

“It’s not painful,” he reassures me. “Or even very hard. And we’ll only stay as long as you want to.”

He stands up and holds his hand out to me.

I have no idea why I take it.

I let him pull me along to the back of the shop, where the lone restroom stands unoccupied. Thank God. He opens the door, and with a quick glance around, we both step inside and he pulls the door shut behind him.

“We do this in the bathroom?”

He rolls his eyes. “We need a mirror. I’m going to show you the basics,” he says, pulling me in front of him to face the mirror. “You’re going to start by looking for the differences.”

“What differences? It’s a mirror.” I look over my shoulder at him.

“It’s a conduit that just happens to be a mirror. That’s how you need to see it and every reflective surface from now on.”

“You mean I could do this with anything I can see myself in?”

“That’s right.” He nods. “For now, we’ll stick with mirrors because they’re the clearest. Eventually we’ll work up to other things. Lids on pots and pans. Teaspoons. Water. Even highly polished wood, if you’re strong enough.”

I look back at him in disbelief. “Polished wood? Really?”

“As long as you can see enough of yourself and you know where you want to go. You’ll get the hang of it.”

He gently takes my chin and guides my face forward again.

“Our counterparts have been prepped to travel by Mario and Rudy, so they’ll be expecting us. We start by giving the signal.”

He puts his hand to the mirror, touching it gently with his fingertips. Then he motions me to do the same.

“Now … look for the differences,” he says.

I look carefully at the reflection in the mirror. My eyes sweep across the room, side to side, but nothing seems out of place. I touch the glass. There is no give to it. It remains solid and the room remains unchanged.

“This is useless,” I huff. “I’m not this … thing you say I am. I’m not.”

“You’re a Traveler,” Finn says firmly. “Just look. Concentrate. Look at only yourself and don’t stop until you see the differences.”

I turn back to the mirror, staring at my own eyes as they reflect back to me, first with irritation, then with boredom. She has the same dark-blond hair. The same blue-green eyes, which are mostly blue at the moment. The same deadpan expression. The same gray Hollister shirt. My eyebrows need to be plucked. Crap. I’d better remember to do that tonight before bed, if I have time after studying for the quiz in Spanish. My mind begins to drift, but I keep looking firmly at my own face, staring myself down until I feel sure that I’ve lost the ability to focus my eyes. I struggle back to reality, forcing myself not to zone out.

And then she blinks.

She blinks.

The other Jessa.

I draw in a startled breath and I’m about to turn away when Finn’s hands come up to hold my head, keeping my face to the mirror.