The Widow(Kate Waters #1)(90)
The phone rings all morning. The papers, the telly, the radio, the family. My mum calls, sobbing about the shame I have brought on them, and my dad is shouting in the background about how he warned me not to marry Glen. He didn’t, but I suppose he wishes he had done now.
I try to comfort Mum, telling her I have been misquoted and the paper has twisted everything, but it’s no good, and in the end, she hangs up.
I feel exhausted by it, so I take the phone off the hook and lie down on my bed. I think about Bella and Glen.
And those last few days before he died.
He’d started asking me what I was going to do. “Are you going to leave me, Jeanie?” he’d said. I said I was going to make a cup of tea and left him standing there. Too much to think about. Betrayal. Decisions. Plans.
And I don’t speak to him again except when it is essential. “It’s your mum on the phone.” Just the bare minimum.
He’s like a ghost, haunting me everywhere in the house. I catch him looking at me from behind the paper. I have him now. He doesn’t know what his Jeanie will do, and it scares him to death.
Glen doesn’t let me out on my own that week. Everywhere I go, he comes, too. Perhaps he thinks I will go straight to Bob Sparkes. That’s because he doesn’t understand a thing about me. I’m not going to tell anyone anything. Not to protect him—don’t make me laugh.
That Saturday, he was on my heels as we came out of Sainsbury’s, and I saw him look at a little girl sitting in a supermarket cart. It was just a glance, but I saw something in his eyes. Something dead. And I pushed him away from the child. Such a little push, and he tripped on the curb and into the road. The bus appeared at the same moment. It was all so quick, and I remember looking at him lying there in a small pool of blood and thinking, “Oh well. That’s the end of his nonsense.”
Does it make me a murderer now? I look at myself in the mirror, try to see if it shows in my eyes, but I don’t think so. Glen got off lightly really. He could have gone on suffering for years, wondering when he’d be exposed. People like Glen can’t help themselves, I’ve heard, so really, I helped him out.
I’m going to sell the house as soon as I can. I’ve got to get through the inquest first, but Tom Payne says it’ll be very straightforward. I just have to tell the coroner about Glen stumbling over his feet and it’ll all be over. I can make my own fresh start.
I rang an estate agent yesterday to find out what the house will fetch. I gave my name, but she didn’t seem to notice—she will eventually, but I told her I wanted a quick sale and she’s coming tomorrow morning. I wonder if Glen’s connection will put the price up or down. Some ghoul might pay a bit extra. You never know.
I’m still deciding where to go, but I’m definitely moving out of London. I’m going to go online to find places, maybe abroad or maybe down toward Hampshire. To be near my baby girl.
FIFTY-TWO
The Reporter
THURSDAY, JULY 1, 2010
The coroner was well-known to the press. A small, neat lawyer who favored highly colored silk bow ties and kept a meticulously trimmed silver mustache. Hugh Holden liked to think of himself as A Character, an occasional thorn in the side of the authorities, unafraid to reach controversial verdicts.
Normally Kate enjoyed his inquests and his quirky line in questioning and verbal flourishes, but she wasn’t in the mood today. She feared this was likely to be Jean Taylor’s last public appearance. There’d be no need for her to show her face again, and she could disappear behind her front door forever.
Outside the court, Mick was milling with the other photographers, waiting for the arrival shots. “Hi, Kate,” he called over the heads. “See you after.”
She filed in with the rest of the reporters and the curious, managing to get one of the last press seats at the front, facing the witness box. Her thoughts were all on Jean, and she watched the door for her entrance. She missed Zara Salmond slipping into the back of the court with some of the Met officers who’d be called to give evidence. Sparkes had sent her in his place. “You go, Salmond. I need your eyes and analysis on her performance. I can’t see anything straight at the moment.”
She’d arrived only just in time, when the grind of the door hinges announced the widow. Jean Taylor looked dignified and in control, in the same dress she’d worn for Glen’s funeral.
She walked slowly through the court with her lawyer to her seat in the front row. That weasel Tom Payne, Kate thought, nodding affably to him and mouthing, Good morning, Tom. He raised his hand in greeting, and Jean looked to see who he was waving to. Their eyes met, and Kate thought for a moment that she was going to acknowledge her. She tried a small smile, but Jean turned away, uninterested.
The other witnesses took their time to settle, shaking hands and hugging one another in the aisles, but finally everyone took their places and stood to attention as the coroner entered.
The coroner’s officer stepped up to tell the court that the deceased’s father had identified the body as that of Glen George Taylor, and then the pathologist gave his evidence of the postmortem examination. Kate kept her eyes on the widow, registering her reactions to the details of the dissection of her husband. He’d had a good last breakfast, anyway, Kate thought as the pathologist ran through the contents of the stomach in desultory fashion. No sign of disease. Contusions and lacerations to arms and thighs consistent with the fall and collision with the vehicle. The fatal injury was to the head. Skull fracture caused by impact with bus and road surface, traumatic brain injury. Death pretty much instantaneous.