The Star-Touched Queen (The Star-Touched Queen #1)(42)
I pushed open the door.
Inside, a gigantic tree stood in the middle of the empty room. Unlike the slim trees of my father’s court, gnarled trunks and twisted roots swelled this tree to an impossible size. Nestled in its branches and obscuring its leaves were thousands of small candles enclosed in glass cylinders. From a distance, it looked like a tree with stars caught in its limbs.
I rested my hand on the trunk but immediately yanked it away. The tree had a heartbeat. It should have been impossible. Then again, many things that should have been impossible were possible in Akaran. The pulsing light of the tree beckoned me, singing with familiarity. How would it feel to cup the smooth glass against my palm, bathe my face in the candles’ light? But I couldn’t. This was the first place in Akaran that felt holy. Even the silence was hallowed.
A length of obsidian mirror shined against the wall. I walked toward it, expecting it to be like the other mirrors of Akaran—windows into different worlds—but this showed nothing but an expanse of black space.
Turning back to the tree, I walked around it in circles, staring at the limbs that spun out dark and forbidding, sharp as arrows. But also familiar. Like a beast tamed to know my hand. I reached for the trunk, shocked by its warmth. Slowly, I started to scale the trunk, my hands gripping the smooth dark wood until I was balancing on a tree limb. Out of breath, I leaned against the tree. Below me, the floor gleamed with silver veins.
Reaching for one of the candles, I took it slowly from its niche. It gave way easily. Only when I brought it to my eyes did I see that it wasn’t even a flame. It was little more than a slice of bright mirror. And there was something inside … an image. A face. Startled, I nearly dropped the candle, but the image had taken hold. It spread over me, slipping behind my eyes. In the candle, I saw a girl whose face glowed with the kind of beauty and slow smile that can make a man believe in magic. She spun happily in a grove of trees, her hands pulling someone along … another girl, whose face was obscured by a curtain of black hair. I leaned closer. And I knew who she was even before the other girl turned around.
It was me.
I saw myself laughing, calling to the other girl, “Nritti! Slow down!”
My mind was grasping, carding through years of memory, trying to sieve through every moment to explain the impossible: I knew that would be her name. And it wasn’t a guess. It was a knee-jerk reaction in my soul.
I stared at myself spinning on a hill. My skin echoed the night sky, velvet black and spangled with diamonds that matched the stars above. Even if we didn’t look the same, I knew it was me. There was something more in the image that I couldn’t ignore. The pulse of friendship, of warmth. Of memory.
I placed the candle back, my heart thrumming as I stared around me. Every single one of these memories was mine. Why would Amar have all of this locked inside a tree? I pulled my sari closer around me, as if it could ward off the chill under my skin.
Then, I reached for another candle and saw the girl I had called Nritti, but this time … she was screaming. Her roar was a hideous, heartbroken bellow. She was in the orchard of the Night Bazaar, tears coursing down her face and clutching her heart, her legs crossed beneath her as she rocked back and forth. The image filled me with a strange ache … guilt. Like it was my fault Nritti was screaming. The image faded. My hands trembled as I put the candle back in its niche, and fumbled for another candle.
… This time, Nritti was wandering through the Night Bazaar, a sunken look in her eyes. Mud and dust caked her feet. Her beautiful clothes were torn and her gaze was searching. Gupta’s words rippled through my thoughts. I remembered his exchange with Amar, the worried sound in his voice: She knows … I don’t know how, but she’s hunting, like she’s caught a scent. I couldn’t shake the sense that she was looking for me.
A low sound drifted through the room. Up ahead, the ivory door gleamed brightly and Amar’s voice called to me from outside. I froze. I couldn’t let him catch me here. There was still so much I had to understand, so much I needed to know.
“Maya?” called Amar again. He was getting closer.
I rushed through the door, murmuring a plea for silence to mute the jangling of my anklets as I tore down the hallways, nearly skidding into the bedroom. I opened the door just in time to see Amar striding toward me. His jacket flashed a fiery red, the light from lanterns throwing his figure into relief. My heart was beating so loudly, I was convinced he would be able to hear it through the silk of my sari.
“I am glad you stayed here,” he said, taking my hands in his.
There was that same flitting in my stomach. But I couldn’t forget the memories in the tree. I couldn’t forget that it was Amar who had kept them from me, who had chained them behind iron and consigned them to silence. Amar who had lied. There was no danger behind the doors, only the danger of knowing myself.
“I will come back later. I only wanted to see that you were safe.”
“Where are you going?”
Amar’s jaw tightened. “I cannot say.”
I was tired of this answer. I could feel something nameless and evil blooming in every shadow. It wasn’t paranoia. I knew it with the certainty of daytime.
Lightly, Amar traced my jaw, his gaze lingering at my lips. Then, he turned on his heel and disappeared behind the halls. I blinked. For a moment, I thought I had seen the snaky tendrils of a noose unraveling from the second bracelet on his wrist.