The Last Star (The 5th Wave, #3)(50)

I hand Bear to Sam for safekeeping, Sam’s as much as the bear’s. He hands it over to Megan. Oh Jesus. Too big for Bear now; they grow up so fast.

Blankets, I tell them. Everybody except Ringer gets a blanket.

Then there’s nothing left to do but climb the stairs one last time.

I take Sammy’s hand, Sammy takes Megan’s, Megan takes Bear’s, and together we rise toward the surface. The stairs jiggle and moan. They may collapse.

We won’t.





52


ZOMBIE

I WATCH AS Ringer carries the last two bodies into the bay of the old garage, one under each arm. I understand how that’s possible; still, it’s a little freaky to watch. I wait by the empty grave for her to come out. It doesn’t happen. Oh, boy. Now what?

Inside the garage the smell of gasoline and grease brings home the past. Before there was Zombie, there was this kid named Ben Parish who worked on cars with his old man on Saturday afternoons, the last being a cherry-red ’69 Corvette, his seventeenth birthday present from his dad, a guy who really couldn’t afford it and pretended it was for his only son, but they both knew the truth. Ben’s birthday was an excuse to buy the car, and the car was an excuse to spend time with his son as the clock wound down to graduation and then college and then grandkids and then the retirement home and then the grave. The grave leapt unexpectedly to the front of the line, not before the car, though; at least for a few Saturday afternoons, they had that car.

She’d laid her victims side by side in the center of the bay, crossing each one’s arms across their chest. Ringer herself is nowhere in sight. For a second, I panic. Every time I expect a zig, there’s a zag. I shift my weight to my good leg and drop the rifle from my shoulder into my hands.

From the deep shadows in the back, a low-pitched whine punctuated by a snuffling. I limp past rows of toolboxes and a cluster of oil drums, behind which I find her, sitting against the cinder-block wall, hugging her knees to her chest.

I can’t stay upright; the pain’s too much. I sit beside her. She wipes her cheeks. It’s the first time I’ve seen Ringer cry. I’ve never seen her smile and probably never will, but now I’ve seen her cry. That’s messed up.

“You didn’t have a choice,” I tell her. Digging up those bodies must have gotten to her. “And, anyway, they don’t know the difference, right?”

She shakes her head. “Oh, Zombie.”

“It isn’t too late, Ringer. We can call it off. Sullivan can’t do this without you.”

“She’d have nothing to do if you hadn’t stepped in front of Walker like that.”

“Maybe I wouldn’t have if you’d trusted me with the truth.”

“The truth,” she echoes.

“The important word here is trusted.”

“I trust you, Zombie.”

“Funny way of showing it.”

She shakes her head. That dumb Zombie, wrong again. “I know you won’t tell.”

She stretches out her legs, and a plastic container flops from her chest onto her thighs. The bright green liquid inside it sloshes. It’s a jug of antifreeze.

“A capful should be enough,” she says, so softly I don’t think the words are directed at me. “The 12th System—it’ll protect me. Protect me . . .”

I grab the jug from her lap. “Goddamn it, Ringer, you didn’t already drink this, did you?”

“Give that back, Zombie.”

I let out my breath. I’ll take that as a no. “You told me what happened but you didn’t tell me how.”

“Well. You know.” She twirls a hand in the air. “The usual way.”

Okay. I deserved that.

“His name was Razor.” She frowns. “No. His name was Alex.”

“The recruit who shot Teacup.”

“For me. So I could escape.”

“The one who helped Vosch set you up.”

“Yes.”

“And then Vosch kind of set the two of you up.”

She gives me the patented impassive Ringer stare. “What does that mean?”

“Vosch left him with you that night. He must have known Razor had . . . that leaving the two of you alone might lead to . . .”

“That’s crazy, Zombie. If Vosch thought that for a second, he never would have left Alex to guard me.”

“How come?”

“Because love is the most dangerous weapon in the world. It’s more unstable than uranium.”

I swallow. My throat is dry. “Love.”

“Yes, love. Can I have that back now?”

“No.”

“I could take it from you.” She’s staring at me across a space no thicker than a fist with eyes only slightly lighter than the dark around them.

“I know you could.”

I tense. I have a feeling she could knock me out with a flick of her little finger.

“You want to know if I loved him. You want to ask me that,” she says.

“It’s none of my business.”

“I don’t love anyone, Zombie.”

“Well, that’s okay. You’re still young.”

“Stop that. Stop trying to make me smile. It’s cruel.”