The Identicals(59)
Prince sings “Kiss.” A collective hoot goes up, and women start to dance. Ainsley races over to the iPod and starts to DJ. Soon the store looks like South Beach at three in the morning.
Meghan’s eyes widen. “This keeps getting more and more surreal.”
Ainsley appears happy, and Harper feels a sense of accomplishment. Tabitha and Eleanor may take umbrage with the party, they may claim that Harper is cheapening the ERF brand with frivolity and fun, but neither of them can argue with the expression on Ainsley’s face.
Just as Harper is congratulating herself, however, the smile falls from Ainsley’s lips as fast as a jumper falls off a bridge. Harper follows her eyes to the front door. Two girls have just walked in, arms linked. One is dark-haired, one strawberry blond—both of them, like Ainsley, look way older than they probably are. The dark-haired one reaches out eagerly for a cup of punch, but Caylee lifts the punch beyond the girl’s reach. “Sorry, but I have to see ID.”
“At a free party?” the dark-haired girl says. “A free party at a tired old-lady boutique?”
Harper is about to march over and take care of the little hellcat, but Ainsley steps forward.
“Emma,” she says. “Candace.”
“Hey, Ainsley!” Emma says, in a voice of mock surprise. “We came to get a dress for Candace. Teddy is taking her out for dinner tonight.”
Ainsley nods, and Harper sees the brave set of her jaw. Hold steady, Harper thinks. You can do this.
“Where are you going?” Ainsley asks.
Candace shrugs. “Ventuno.”
“Nice,” Ainsley says.
“He sent her flowers today,” Emma says. “He wants her to wear one in her hair tonight. Isn’t that the most romantic thing you’ve ever heard?”
Ainsley’s eyes harden, and—whoa!—Harper gets a chill. In that instant, Ainsley looks exactly like Tabitha. Harper knows what’s coming: Fuck you, Emma.
Go ahead, Harper thinks. Say it.
But before Ainsley can speak, there is a shriek, loud enough to rise above “Hollaback Girl.” The sound puts an instantaneous end to the dancing. It came from Meghan. She is standing with her legs akimbo, and water gushes out of her onto the sumptuous silver-gray carpeting of the ERF boutique.
“My water broke!” she cries. “The baby is coming!”
TABITHA
She can’t believe the freedom she feels when she drives off the ferry in Oak Bluffs. For the first time in a long, long time, Tabitha doesn’t have to take care of anyone—not her mother, not her daughter. She can do whatever she wants. She can be her own person. It’s completely novel.
Harper, of course, has lived like this for years and years. She had Billy—but Billy was nothing like Eleanor. He didn’t make demands or requests or assumptions; he didn’t hold impossibly high expectations. Harper has had it so easy.
Tabitha drives down Circuit Avenue in Oak Bluffs, past a place called the Ritz that advertises LIVE MUSIC TONIGHT and emits the mouthwatering smell of char-grilled burgers.
Burgers. Live music. Tabitha will drop her things off at Billy’s and come back to the Ritz for dinner. Even thinking about this makes her feel like a new person.
Billy’s house really is bad. It reeks of cigarettes and dog—Tabitha shudders, imagining Fish peeing and shedding all over the carriage house—and the whole thing is shabby, stale, outdated, and ugly. Billy always made a good living, but he never invested any of it in his domicile. The furniture would be at home circled around a hobo campfire. The recliner—ugh! The kitchen—ick!
Tabitha is nothing if not organized. She wanders the first floor, making notes about what she would do if Harper agrees: pull up carpet, refinish floors, gut kitchen (despite the fact that she doesn’t cook, it has always been Tabitha’s dream to renovate a kitchen), paint everything, get a new toilet and sink for the powder room, buy new light fixtures (it looks as though Billy has salvaged only the most hideous fixtures from his twenty years on this island and installed them in his own house), and order brand-new furniture. (Houzz! Wayfair! One Kings Lane! Tabitha has scoured these websites late into the night for years, dreaming of the imaginary rooms she would someday curate.)
Upstairs, she appraises the bedrooms—her father’s and the lavender room that used to be Harper’s; the Hootie & the Blowfish poster is still on the wall. The third bedroom, Tabitha’s old room, still has the god-awful beige wall-to-wall carpeting, but the walls have been painted light blue. What color was it when Tabitha used to stay here so long ago? She doesn’t remember. The window over the neatly made full-size bed looks out on the backyard. At this time of day, the room is the recipient of bountiful golden sunlight. Billy could easily have used it as his office instead of the dining table downstairs. Or, as in other homes, the room might have held an underutilized piece of exercise equipment or cast-off furniture. But it’s clean and empty except for the bed, as though it has been waiting for her to come back.
She closes her eyes, and tears leak out. I’m here, Daddy, she thinks. I’m here now.
Tabitha did some research: Billy’s bank account holds ninety-two thousand dollars. To do what she envisions, she will have to use all that and tap into her own reserves. This is a little scary, considering that Ainsley is heading to college in two years, but Tabitha will pay herself back out of the proceeds from the sale, and, since she’s doing all the work, she will pay herself a salary. All she needs is for Harper to agree. Harper is against renovating because Harper is timid and unimaginative. She doesn’t understand what Tabitha is capable of.