The Heavenly Table(55)

“Maybe you got one of them worms in ye like mama had,” Chimney joked.

“Jesus Christ, shut up,” Cane said. “He don’t need to hear that shit.”

“And why does he keep followin’ me?” Cob said. He turned his head as if he were looking at something behind them.

“Who?”

“Tardweller. No matter what I give him, he won’t go away.”

“Well, that settles it,” Cane said. “We stay here for now.”

They laid Cob on his blanket under a gnarled crabapple tree, hobbled the horses in the grassiest spots they could find. Then Chimney climbed with the Enfield twenty feet or so into a tall spruce at the southern edge of the promontory and propped himself between two thick branches. He reached in his back pocket for a strand of licorice and leaned back against the sticky trunk to keep an eye out for the band of sodomites that were on their heels.

Cane was searching through the saddlebags, trying to figure out if they had any food left, when he realized with a start that The Life and Times of Bloody Bill Bucket was missing. He thought for a minute, recalled that the last place he had seen it was back at the farmhouse where they had hid out from the Russell posse. Evidently, in the rush to get away after Chimney killed the clerk, he must have forgotten it. “Bloody Bill,” he said to himself. How many times, he wondered, had he read that book to his brothers? He had lost track, but it had to be fifteen, maybe twenty. Though he had always known it was just an outlandish tale written by someone (and maybe Charles Foster Winthrop III wasn’t even his real name) who probably didn’t know any more about killing people and robbing banks than an old maid who’d spent all her life hidden away in a bedroom of her father’s house, it had still given them hope when there was none, something to aim for that was bigger than the life they’d been handed, even if it was crazy to think they’d ever get away with it. And where would they be right now if they’d never found it that day in that moldy-ass carpetbag? Or, for that matter, if he hadn’t been able to read. Still be poor as dirt, doing Tardweller’s bidding and trying to stretch another meal or two out of a sick hog.

Up until now, he reckoned that the only period in his life when he had truly felt like he was worth something was when his mother was teaching him his letters. She used to brag on the easy way that he picked up words, said that someday he would be a schoolteacher. After she died, he used to put himself to sleep at night thinking about those hours they spent together at the kitchen table, but after four or five years of wandering around half-starved with Pearl, they started to fade away, just like her face did. He glanced into the saddlebag they carried the money in, then cinched it closed. After the way that they had lived, he couldn’t hold it against Chimney for simply wanting good times and women, but he desired something more for Cob and himself. Nothing fancy, just a decent life. A sturdy house with polished floors and a good woman and clean clothes and books on a shelf. Like he’d seen that rainy night in Tennessee.

He raised his head and saw two young boys fishing on the other side of the river, the leaves on the trees behind them already turning, vivid splashes of orange and red and yellow. A flock of starlings swooped down along the water, then rose up and scattered in different directions across the blue sky. He leaned against his horse and closed his eyes, and though he knew it was way too much to expect after all the awful things they had done, he asked God in a whisper to help them get to Canada. And in return, he vowed, he would try to live right the rest of his time on earth. Then he went over and sat beside Cob. In the shade, the air had a slight chill to it. He yawned and cocked his pistol, laid it on the ground beside him.

The sun was setting when Chimney shook him awake. “Come on, we better get to it.”

Though the fever had subsided, Cob was still weak as a cat. What they needed, Cane thought, was to find somewhere to put up for a few days and rest once they got across the river. As Chimney gathered up the guns and got the horses ready, he poured more whiskey on Cob’s wound, then tied a clean rag around it. “So is that Canada over yonder?” Cob asked.

“No, that’s Ohio,” Cane replied, handing him the canteen. “But we’re gettin’ close.”

Before they left, they split the last of some jerky and a chocolate bar. As they mounted their horses, Cane remembered looking through the saddlebags earlier. “I think I lost Bloody Bill’s book,” he said.

“What?” Cob asked.

“I can’t find it, and the last time I recall seeing it was back there at that farmhouse. I must’ve forgot to pack it.”

For a moment, Chimney looked disappointed, even a little sad, as if he’d just found out he’d lost a good friend, but then he spat and said, “Aw, we can probably find us another one. I imagine they sell ’em all over the place. Besides, we can damn near recite every word in it anyway.”

“It don’t matter to me,” Cob said. “The way I look at it, that thing’s been nothin’ but trouble.”

They made their way down off the bluff in the dark and traveled west along a gravelly path to the covered bridge. The sky was the color of a crow, and they could hear the water lapping against the girders. There was just a narrow, planked walkway between the two sets of rails, barely wide enough for a man. They stood at the mouth of the tunnel and peered in, but a thick mist made it impossible to see anything. “Let’s just hope we don’t meet anything in there,” Chimney said.