Rich and Pretty(71)

She has been impatient for September, and now here it is: three books launching, related parties and events scheduled, that back-to-school feeling in the air and even if you’re the sort to sing “no more pencils, no more books,” there’s something comforting in the sense that the world is getting back to business. Lauren’s ready, ready to shake the hands and soothe the egos, to demonstrate efficiency, to reach for excellence. She’s ready for more. Sarah has a baby, for Christ’s sake. What the f*ck does she have?

“Lauren, come sit and talk to me,” Lulu says, beckoning from the sofa. “Come, come.”

Lauren makes an apologetic face to the younger women—Lulu must be obeyed—accepting before she goes, from Meredith, a glass of white wine.

“How are you, then? So beautiful, look Sharon, this is Sarah’s oldest friend, isn’t she beautiful?” Lulu’s friend nods in agreement, or benediction.

Lulu has this quality, sometimes, of seeming very drunk, when in fact she isn’t. Lauren has never understood what brings this on in her. “How are you, Grandma?”

“Ah.” Lulu clasps her hands. “I’ve decided on Mamina—Henry’s going to call me his mamina, isn’t that lovely? I am, in my old age, you see, getting more interested in my roots. Mamina. That’s how I called my mother’s mother, so it’s got a history to it. And of course, we’ll have to raise him with Spanish.”

Lauren nods. “They say it’s easy, when you start from birth.”

“It is, well, of course it is, we were raised in English, Spanish, French, we never knew any different, we just answered in whatever language we were spoken to, this is how it should be. This country, the way people insist on English, it’s so small, don’t you think?”

Lauren agrees. It’s easier, with Lulu, to agree.



The thing Sarah wants least, now, is to open the presents, in front of everyone, but it is clear that’s what people expect, or at least Meredith and Lulu, the most vocal among them. So she does. Amina is holding the baby, who isn’t doing anything because babies can’t do anything, and Sarah perches on the leather pouf from that Moroccan shop in the West Village and unwraps. There is: a sterling silver rattle in telltale blue box, plus a stuffed monkey, very soft, from Meredith; a blanket, off-white cotton, hand-embroidered with a motif of small giraffes, and the very practical package of onesies, from Carol; a dozen little board books, from the black-and-white ones that are meant to be the only thing a small baby’s eyes can discern, to actual storybooks, the sort she’ll read aloud at some impossible-to-imagine point in the future, from Sharon.

“Mine next!” Amina, arms full of Henry, nods at a box wrapped in yellow.

Lauren hands it to Sarah, and she sits with it on her lap, for a second, looking at all of them, looking at her. She has a baby. This realization has come a couple of times now, each of them surprising. She knew she was going to have a baby, she was there when the baby emerged from her very body, but still, in moments, it’s possible to forget, or be so preoccupied with remembering things like which side of the diaper goes in back, quickly, before his little penis dribbles out yet more of his perfectly clear urine, that the very fact of it is lost, or buried. This is probably by design; the baby keeps you busy so you don’t have time to reflect on the fact that you have a baby. She doesn’t want to think too much, because she’s terrified of postpartum depression and has come somehow to equate the two. Sometimes, thinking too deeply is a mistake, is a trap. Sometimes it’s best just to do.

It’s a sound machine, Amina’s gift, buried inside a plush sheep. Sarah’s read good things about this. “Thank you!”

She’s not making a list but feels like she’ll be able to remember who gave her what; the gift reflects its giver’s personality, somehow. She’ll know that the hand-crocheted mobile in the shape of an antique bird’s cage was from Fiona, because only Fiona would give a present nominally suitable for baby and yet so stylish. She’s glad that Fiona is pregnant—is happy, of course, as you would be, for a friend, but selfishly, too. There are no mothers in Sarah’s close circle, and even though she’s only a couple of weeks into it, she feels alone, or like she’d benefit from some peer support. She supposes, now that she considers it, that maybe she’s always imagined doing this with Lauren, getting married, vacationing together with their husbands, who would, of course, be friends, or friendly enough. Then having babies, passing hand-me-downs back and forth between them until they could no longer remember who had originally bought those Old Navy overalls. Foolish, she guesses; she thinks, or knows, that Lauren will probably never have a baby, and even if she did, Lauren wouldn’t approach it the way Sarah’s going to approach it. She still remembers, though, the things she once thought, even if nothing has happened quite as she imagined it would.

There’s only Lauren’s gift now, a bounty of clothes, ridiculous every one—outfits for a man, scaled down for a baby, and a sailor’s suit like a baby in a Shirley Temple movie might have worn. She laughs. She understands, immediately, that this is both a joke and not.

“These are ridiculous,” she says.

“I couldn’t resist,” Lauren says, also laughing.

There’s also a blank book, in a pretty jeweled color.

“For photos,” Lauren says. “Real pictures. Not just data on your cell phone. Old school. You’ll be glad you have it later.”