Rich and Pretty(41)

She blinks. The level of chlorine in the water has been perfectly calibrated. Her eyes feel fine. In a few weeks, the local newscasters will be delirious with joy as they estimate increasingly more dire snowfalls. The store on the corner will fill with people who never keep food in their apartments, desperate to buy milk. It’s always milk. It’s hard to fathom: In forty-eight hours, less than, she’ll be borne back home; she didn’t want to come here in the first place and now she wants never to leave. She’ll move to the island, open a cooking school, lead chartered tours, run a bed-and-breakfast, plan destination weddings for a living. Every vacation comes to this point, doesn’t it: visions of an alternate reality. Sell the house, quit your job. Tomorrow morning, the moment will have passed, and she’ll be tired of drinking subpar coffee out of cups so small that the stuff loses its essential heat too quickly. Tomorrow morning, she’ll miss the amiable chatter of the WNYC crew. Tomorrow morning, she’ll be tired of the relentless fluffiness of the towels here, the weird softness of the water in the shower, the sweetness of the food.

There are eyes on her, and she catches them. The waiter, the same one who’s been serving the guests by the pool all afternoon, the same waiter who brought them drinks—strictly nonalcoholic, they’re all in the mood for Cokes—an hour ago. He’s handsome, of course, hotels like this don’t employ the ugly; he looks almost carved, though is that racist, only something she thinks because of the incredible blackness of his skin? She doesn’t think so, or doesn’t mean it that way, though of course, racists never mean their racist ideas in a racist way. Anyway, it’s well intentioned: He’s gorgeous, actually. He’s a bit younger than they are, she guesses twenty-five. There’s something about the ease with which he talks to them. They could be his big sister’s friends. They’re visitors from a world not his own, not New York, but their thirties.

He had arched one eyebrow, one only, as he handed her a glass of Coke. The wedge of lemon embraced the lip of the glass in a way that was sort of beautiful. Normally, the lemon is a bit of art direction Lauren can do without. Today, she squeezed it into the thing, and damned if it wasn’t more delicious. In the alternate reality she’s in now, she drinks soda with a citrus twist at eleven thirty in the morning.

“Thank you,” she had said, because you say thank you, and you make eye contact when you do. A lesson learned over the course of many Friday nights at restaurants with Lulu.

That eyebrow, moving like it was independent of his face. What muscle did he manipulate to achieve this effect? It was a little flippant, not the deferential “You’re welcome” offered to the rest of the girls with their Cokes—Diet for Sarah and Fiona. There were nuts, too, a sterling dish in the shape of a seashell, a bed of peanuts and cashews, a lone, gigantic Brazil nut. She took it.

He’s got another tray, for an older couple, the only honeymooners at the resort, or so she assumes. She imagines theirs a second marriage, maybe a third. They’re old enough that there could be older children, college aged. The man is a little dumpy and pale but with very happy eyes, the woman is redheaded and strangely vibrant, probably a yoga teacher, or an amateur ceramicist. The waiter places their tray on the table with a flourish, but is the flourish meant for her? His shirt, incredibly white for someone who works with food, his smile still easy, still convincing. Maybe he’s stoned? Lauren sees his smile falter, waver for a second into something else, and she bends her knees, drops back under the surface of the water.

An hour later, she is the first to make her excuses. The empty glasses and bowls and remnants of the chicken Caesar salad that Sarah and Amina picked at together have been cleared. The umbrella is still useful, because the sun is so powerful, but Lauren wants a break and pretends that will be a nap. There are kisses, something she has given in to. Women like these kiss good-bye, it’s one of those when-in-Rome situations. She knots the towel around her body, a stab at modesty. Here, they can lie basically naked, but a hundred yards from here, the hallway seems to demand more decorum.

She shoves her sunglasses up onto her head, one hand keeping the towel in place, the other gripping the flimsy cotton bag, the promising weight of the not-much-read paperback inside. Up over the path, flip-flops in her bag, the grass underfoot. It’s a wonderful feeling. Inside, the hallway is air-conditioned, if not as arctic as she knows the room will be. Her flesh prickles. Her nipples tense. She should drop the flip-flops to the floor, step into them. She doesn’t, though, hurries past the equine paintings toward her room. And there is the waiter. He’s bearing a tray, gives a nod with that smile, a nod back, tipping his chin up high, holding his face up for her to study. A nod not of deference, of servility; a nod of hello, the nod of the man on the street. She knows this nod. Then he’s past her, rapping firmly on a door down the hall and announcing himself in a cheerful voice. No accent to speak of.

She fumbles into her room, tosses the bag onto the bed, so lush that the impact makes no sound. She drops the towel to the ground, kicks it out of the way. Absurdly she wants a hot shower. The mind-boggling waste of a hot shower on a hot day. She’s thirsty, too, ready for another eight-dollar bottle of water. A little shiver from the cold, or the heat, or the shock of the one after the other when, just as firmly as on the door down the hall, a knock. Actually, three. No explanation offered.

She doesn’t bother trying to hide behind the towel, actually kicks it out of the way so she can open the door.