Reckless Temptations (Tempted #4)(47)

“Please,” Adrianna cringed. “Just go along with it.”

I looked around the clubhouse, noting the prospects that guarded the door with their rifles strapped to their backs and Wolf’s three boys who seemed unfazed by it all. I wondered if our situation was different, if me and Riggs were an actual couple, would this be our life. Reina was Jack’s girlfriend, old lady, whatever you call it and Jimmy had taken her. What would stop someone from taking me?

Then there was Lacey who had declared these men her family. It was clear she feared for their safety and not just her father’s but all of these men. I don’t know if I could live like that. I glanced over at Grace who carried a tray of antipasto to the pool table and couldn’t picture being that woman.

I turned to Adrianna.

“How did you do it for all those years?”

“How’d I do what?” She asked.

“Stand by while he risked his life doing God knows what?”

“It’s not easy, Lauren,” she said, wrapping her arm around my shoulders, dragging me against her side. “But these men, whether they are in the mob or this motorcycle club, were just little boys once. I might be the wrong person to ask, but as a mother of a little boy, if my son lost his way, and found purpose on the other side of the law, I’d still hope there was someone who loved him despite his flaws, despite his bad choices,” she explained, pausing for a second as she looked around the clubhouse. “They’re not bad men,” she concurred. “Just good guys who lost their way and sometimes do bad things to protect their interests and the people they love. They’re flawed and some of them are scarred but they have loyalty. I dare you to find one of them that doesn’t look out for what is his. They have respect and honor, something half the law-abiding men in this world don’t know the first thing about,” she added.

“What’re you talking about?” Nikki asked, as she joined us.

“Loving a bad boy,” Adrianna said with a laugh.

“Isn’t it fun?” Nikki asked with a mischievous smile on her face.

Yeah, loads. They returned to the clubhouse an hour later but aside from Jack who took a few minutes to talk to his daughter, the rest of them were off doing whatever it was badass bikers do when on a mission.

“Lauren? Are you still finding yourself?” My mother asked as she took a sip of…was that whiskey?

“Uh, yeah, mom. It’s kind of a process,” I said.

She nodded.

“Do your mom a favor and don’t join the ranks of Griselda Blanca. One career criminal in the family is enough,” she said, throwing back the rest of her drink.

“Maria, the manicotti is done,” Grace called.

“I’m coming,” she shouted over her shoulder before mumbling under her breath. “Cooking Christmas dinner for a bunch of criminals wasn’t how I saw this day going.”

My mother was drunk.

This should be fun.

The door opened, the one some of the men had disappeared behind, and Riggs emerged strapping on a bullet-proof vest.

“Goddamn!” Nikki hissed. “I’m making Mikey buy a motorcycle.”

Two weeks ago I would have had the same reaction but now, after knowing I was having his baby, all I felt was a huge lump in my throat.

What if he doesn’t make it back?

He’ll never know…

My feet made my decision as they walked straight toward him.

“Ink’s dry, brother,” Riggs told Jack, handing him a vest. “We gotta move,” he added.

It’s now or possibly never.

“Riggs, can I talk to you?” I asked, stepping in front of him.

“Can it wait?” He snapped, his eyes cold and uninviting, a side of him I had never seen before. “Don’t really have much time to fight with you people on whether it’s called sauce or gravy and I’m not in the mood to argue about my life choices, the ones you mob folk seem to love to criticize. So, no Lauren, not now,” he said, fitting his helmet to his head and turning toward Jack. “I’ll be outside,” he stated, before walking out the door.

I didn’t find my voice until the engines roared to life outside.

“No problem, just wanted to tell you to be careful because you’re going to be a father,” I said to no one.

“What did you say?”

Shit.

“Lauren?”

I slowly turned around and through my tears I stared into my mother’s shocked eyes.

“I’m pregnant,” I whispered.





Keep moving.

It was what we kept telling ourselves as we raced against the clock to get Reina and Blackie back. There was no time to think, when one of your own is at risk, you don’t think anyway, you just act. We were high on adrenaline and the promise we would destroy Jimmy Gold.

It was our job.

It was our purpose.

Motherfucker, was going down.

The Satan’s Knights would crucify that bitch.

We parked our bikes behind an Italian restaurant on Mulberry Street, strapped our guns to our bodies, ski masks firmly in place, not giving a fuck we were walking the streets of Manhattan with rifles hanging off our shoulders.

We needed to keep moving.

And that’s what we did, moving our asses to Mott Street, like the pack of badass criminals we were. There was no trace of the men we were on a daily basis, the group of guys content on smoking weed and joking around in the Chapel.