Once Broken Faith (October Daye #10)(53)
I’d paused too long. Sylvester sighed, and said, “I promise you, October, I’m not here to make you have a conversation you’re not ready for. This is about Antonio’s death.”
“Just a second,” I said. Turning to Tybalt, I asked, “Can you please go walk the halls? Watch for anyone acting suspicious. See if anything looks out of place. Talk to the bats in the attic, if you have to. Just . . . do my job while I deal with my liege, okay?”
“For you, the world,” he said, and kissed me, quick and glancing, before turning to stride across the room, moving toward the shadow he’d used to enter.
I didn’t wait to watch him disappear. I just straightened my shirt, ran my hands through my hair, and turned back to the door. Quentin stood, moving to fall in behind me in the squire’s position as I opened the door for Duke Sylvester Torquill of Shadowed Hills, my liege, substitute father figure, and technically, step-uncle.
Faerie gets confusing sometimes.
For his part, Sylvester looked . . . relieved. The emotion in his face was more complicated than that, seeming composed of equal parts exhaustion, worry, and pleasure, but relief was the end result. Fae don’t age, but there were shadows in his honey-colored eyes that hadn’t been there the last time we’d been face-to-face, and his russet-red hair was less carefully combed than it should have been. All these were small things, things I’d been able to miss from a distance. With him right in front of me, I couldn’t ignore them.
“October,” he said, and smiled.
For a moment—a single, heartbreaking moment—I wanted nothing more than to throw myself into his arms and let the familiar dogwood and daffodils scent of his magic surround me. He’d been my mentor, my teacher, and my surrogate parent for almost as long as I could remember. Compared to that, our estrangement seemed to be of little consequence, something so recent and pointless that I wanted to throw it aside. I just couldn’t.
He’d lied to me. He’d kept secrets that had caused me and the people around me to suffer. He’d done it because of promises he’d made to my mother, and while I could respect his desire to keep his word, I couldn’t forgive the fact that he’d hurt me in the process. Some prices were too high to pay. “Sylvester,” I said, moving to the side. “Please, come in.”
His smile died as he realized that an open door was not the same thing as forgiveness. “Of course,” he said, and stepped past me, allowing me to close the door. Before I could ask, he said, “Luna is in our quarters, resting. Queen Windermere was kind enough to provide a room with a door which opens on the garden, considering Luna’s special circumstances.”
Luna was a Blodynbryd, a rose who walked like a woman. I nodded. “It was smart of you not to bring her along. I’m not sure she’s in the mood to talk to me. Ever again.”
“I know.” He didn’t make apologies. He didn’t try to justify his wife’s behavior. He just looked at me, and I was struck again by how tired he seemed.
The longer I looked at him, the worse I felt about our estrangement. This needed to end. I took a deep breath, and asked, “All right: why are you here? I don’t think it’s because you want to find out whether Tybalt still wants to strangle you. Which, by the way, he does.”
“Congratulations on the occasion of your engagement,” said Sylvester. “Given our current circumstances, I know you won’t accept this offer, but should you like, you would be more than welcome to hold your wedding at Shadowed Hills. I would be delighted—no, I would be honored—to witness your marriage.”
“It seems like everyone in the Mists wants to choose my wedding venue for me,” I said.
“If Toby had her way, she’d be getting married at the city hall,” said Quentin.
“Nothing wrong with a good civil ceremony,” I said. “Sylvester, not that it’s not nice to see you and everything, but why are you here?”
“Because I wish to offer assistance,” he said. “Grianne is willing to help you look for King Antonio’s killer. You know her well enough to know that she’d be a valuable ally, and I would feel better knowing you had someone with you who could remove you from the situation quickly, should it turn hazardous.”
I frowned, tilting my head as I asked, “What makes this situation any different from all the other dangerous situations I’ve walked into? If there’s something you’re not telling me, that’s really a habit that you should get out of. Now, if possible.”
Sylvester was silent for a long moment before he sighed, and said, “Normally, you have Tybalt with you. It’s no secret that he and I aren’t friends—”
“He tried to kill you. He used to respect you, you know. I’d never seen him bow to a noble of the Divided Courts before he bowed to you. You’ve pretty much spoiled that.”
“It seems I’m even more adept than my brother at spoiling things, and he slumbers for his sins,” said Sylvester. There was a profound weariness to his tone. “Regardless of your lover’s hatred of me—hatred I do not contest having earned, believe me—I trust him to keep you safe and well. If I can’t fight beside you, he is who I’d choose for the position. But he can’t hold that position and sit the conclave at the same time, and with the doors sealed to keep us on the inside, I assume he can’t summon any additional monarchs of the Cait Sidhe to free him from his duties.”