Loving Him Off the Field (Santa Fe Bobcats #2)(51)

His jaw tightened a little, but he shrugged. “Went home, ate, took a nap. Nothing out of the ordinary. Why me?”

Aileen blinked. “Why you . . . what?”

“I’m supposed to be interviewing you, aren’t I?” He leaned back and draped his arms over the chairs next to him. Which meant his left arm brushed against her neck and shoulders as he positioned it. She fought against the urge to tilt her head up and rub against him. Because that would be creepy.

“Yeah, but I didn’t think you actually wanted to interview-interview me. Just, you know, annoy me and stuff.”

His lips twitched at that. “Caught, huh. Well, I suck at annoying you, so I figure I might as well try another tact.”

“Hmm.” She watched as Cindy hit the gutter instead of the ten pin she was aiming for and groaned. “And now we’ll get to hear about that for another ten minutes,” she muttered under her breath. Though Cindy and Al were a very nice couple, they were intense about bowling in a way that made her wonder why they’d agreed to be teammates with her and Ernie. Ernie was good—great, actually—and she could hold her own when her head wasn’t stuck up her ass. But neither were overly competitive. Cindy and Al . . . were.

Cindy held up a hand when Aileen stood to take her turn, indicating she wanted more time. Aileen sank back down, grateful for a moment longer.

Killian watched as Cindy and Al replayed where she’d went wrong, going so far as to take a practice run at the lane without a ball. He tilted his head to one side. “What are they doing?”

“Beating a dead horse. It’s as much fun for them to do play-by-plays as it is to actually bowl.” She gave him a look that said, without words, she didn’t understand. He smiled his understanding.

“I know you sometimes get assignments from work, and sometimes you choose them. So did you get assigned to me? Or did you pick me? And why do you stick with it, even when I’ve been giving you such a hard time?”

She shrugged and stood, shaking out her right hand. Both palms had suddenly become damp. “Because annoying you is the highlight of my day, of course.” She held her hand over the fan and prayed he wouldn’t push.

But of course, he did. “Was I assigned?

“Why does it matter?”

“Or did you pick me?” he asked, ignoring her sharp return.

She indicated with a finger she needed a minute for her turn, then grabbed her ball and headed to the lane. She watched as her left hand, positioned over the side of the ball, trembled. Aileen took a few deep breaths, took two steps, then realized if she took her backswing, she’d drop the ball. She set the ball down between her feet and shook her hands out, as if they were still damp. They weren’t. They were shaking instead.

Ernie stepped up behind her. “You okay, kid?”

“Sure.” She clenched her right hand to keep it from jerking and then heard the stiff canvas of her brace creak. “Just a little sore.”

He stared at her, faded blue eyes assessing, taking in every word. And clearly, found her answer to be the bullshit it was. “He bothering you? Want me to make him leave?”

“No,” she said quickly, then glanced over her shoulder. Killian was sitting forward now, forearms on his knees, watching her. A lock of dark hair fell over one eye, but he didn’t brush it away. He waved one hand at her. She lifted her own in return. “No, he’s fine. I’m just not in a great mind space tonight. Maybe I should go.”

“And handicap us?”

“Those two are better than I am,” she pointed out.

“And leave me with those two?” he corrected. He nodded slightly at Cindy and Al, who were watching a bowling video on Al’s phone about the importance of a good backswing. “Don’t leave me.”

Killian wandered up, hands still in his pockets, looking a little lost. He paused on the linoleum, not stepping up onto the wooden floor. “Problem?”

“No,” Aileen said at the same time Ernie muttered, “Yes.”

Killian looked as confused as Aileen felt. Having him there was a distraction she couldn’t handle. She wasn’t an awesome bowler to begin with. Adding in his presence, forcing her emotions and hormones to go haywire, and she was screwed.

“I’m just off my game today,” she said in lieu of the truth. “Bad night. Was thinking of calling it early and taking off.”

Al and Cindy looked up from Al’s phone and both protested. Ernie stared her down in mulish silence. Killian raised a brow.

“If you leave, aren’t they down a team member?”

“Fine,” she snapped. “I’ll finish. Just don’t blame me when I bring down the average.” She stormed back to her seat and dropped down in a huff. Yes, she was being childish. Yes, she was being absurd. No, she didn’t care. Anything to keep Killian from noticing her mini freak-out earlier was an improvement, even immature behavior.

Because she knew, just knew, if he found a sore spot, he’d poke at it until he got her to back off and leave him alone. Their time spent burning up the sheets was nothing compared to the freedom he craved from her journalistic questions and probing.

And maybe that was the worst part. Knowing the second he had a free way out, he’d take it without a backward glance. She had no logical reason to be hurt by that. There were no agreements between them, no promises of a future or even referring to whatever they had as a relationship. She’d apparently invented the entire fantasy of him tossing his cares aside and sweeping her up and off her feet with the soft words, “I don’t care if you’re a reporter. We’ll make it work,” whispered in her ear. Yeah. Like that was even possible.