Lover Mine (Black Dagger Brotherhood #8)(83)

"What should I do about the dressing?" she murmured, looking down at the white bandage that stretched across her pelvis.

When John glanced over at his pad, as if he were trying to decide

whether he could reach it while still holding her up, she said, "No, I don't want Doc Jane. I'm just going to take it off."

She picked a corner free and as she weaved on her feet, she figured it probably would have been better to do this lying down--and under medical supervision. But f*ck it.

"Oh . . ." she breathed as she slowly revealed the line of black stitches.

"Damn . . . V's female is good with a needle and thread, huh."

John took the bloodstained gauze pack and nothing-but-netted it into

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she was thinking about getting back on the bed.

For some reason, the idea she'd been cut open made her light-headed.

"Let's do this," she said gruffly.

He let her set the pace, which turned out to be only slightly quicker than reverse.

"Can you turn the lights off in there?" she said as they shuffled along, her baby steps measuring at the most three inches. "I don't want to see what I look like in that mirror over the sink."

The instant he was in range, his arm snaked out and he clicked the

switch on the wall.

"Thanks."

The feel of the humid air and the sound of the falling water eased her mind and her spine. Trouble was, the tension had helped keep her up and now she was sagging.

"John . . ." Was that her voice? So weak and thin. "John, will you get in with me. Please."

Talk about your long silences. But then in the light that streamed in from over at the bed, he nodded.

"While you undress out there," she said, "you can shut the door and I'll use the loo."

With that, she gripped the bar that was bolted into the wall and

maneuvered herself over. There was another pause, and then John stepped back and the light source was dimmed.

After she took care of business, she dragged herself up and cracked

the door.

What she got was that pad in her face: I would have left my boxers on but I don't wear them under my leathers.

"That's okay. I'm hardly the shy kind."

Although that proved to be not entirely accurate as the two of them

got into the stall shower together. You'd think after all she'd been through that a little skin, in a darkened room, with a male she trusted and had already been with, wouldn't have been a big deal. It was, though.

Especially as his body brushed against the back of her as he shut the glass door.

Concentrate on the water, she told herself, wondering if she'd lost her damn mind.

As she tilted her head up, she started to list to the side and his big hand slipped under her arm to hold her vertical.

"Thank you," she said roughly.

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her hair down to her scalp, and the idea that she could clean herself off was suddenly more of a priority than everything John Matthew wasn't wearing.

"I forgot the soap, damn it."

John pulled another lean and lunge, his hips pushing into hers. And

although she tensed up, bracing herself for something sexual . . . he wasn't aroused.

Which was a relief. After the stuff Lash had done to her--

As the soap was pressed into her palm, she locked down all thoughts

of what had happened in that bedroom and just wet the bar under the spray.

Wash herself. Dry off. Back to bed. That's all she had to think about.

The strong, distinct smell of Dial wafted up and she had to blink fast.

It was exactly what she would have chosen herself.

Amazing, John thought as he stood behind Xhex.

If you looked down at your cock and balls and told them that if they

behaved badly you would slice them up and bury them in the backyard, they actually listened to you.

He was going to have to remember this.

The shower stall was a generous size for a male, but it was close

quarters with the two of them and he had to keep his ass pressed against the cool tile to make one hundred percent sure that Mr. Bright Idea and his twin sidekicks, Dumber and Dumberer, stayed away from her.

After all, the pep talk had done wonders, but he wasn't going to push it.

Besides, he remained shocked that Xhex was so weak he needed to

hold her upright--even after feeding. Then again, you didn't just shake off four weeks of hell after a two-hour nap. Which was how long she'd been asleep, according to his watch.

As she hit the shampoo, she arched her back, her wet hair brushing

against his chest before she turned around to rinse the suds. He switched his grip as necessary, holding first her right upper arm, then her left, then again her right.

Trouble hit when she bent over to wash her legs.

"Shit--" Her balance shifted so fast, his grip popped off her slick, soapy biceps and she fell right against his body.

He had a brief, vivid impression of slippery, wet, and warm and then

he slammed himself back against the wall and scrambled for a less full-contact way of keeping her upright.