Lover Awakened (Black Dagger Brotherhood #3)(14)

But now…to have the intimacy happening in this way, he was ashamed that he had dared to want something.

Abruptly, the Mistress released him and slapped him across the face. The palm print stung on his cheek as she got off the table.

“Bring me the salve,” she snapped. “That thing of his knows not its function.”

One of the males came forward to the table with a small pot. The slave felt someone put a slippery hand on him, he wasn’t sure who, and then there was a burning sensation. As a curious weight settled in his groin, he felt something shift on his thigh and then slowly move across his stomach.

“Oh…good Virgin in the Fade,” one of the males said.

“Such size,” the other breathed. “He would o’er-spill the depths of a well.”

The Mistress’s voice was likewise amazed. “’Tis enormous.”

The slave lifted his head. There was a mighty swollen thing lying on his belly, the likes of which he had never seen before.

He lay back down against the table as the Mistress mounted his hips. This time he felt something engulf him, something wet. He put his head up again. She was astride him and he was…inside of her body. She moved against him, pumping up and down, panting. He was dimly aware that the other males in the room were moaning again, the guttural sounds growing louder as she moved faster and faster. And then there were shouts, hers, theirs.

The Mistress collapsed against the slave’s chest. While she still breathed heavily, she said, “Hold his head down.”

One of the males put a palm on the slave’s forehead and then stroked the slave’s hair with his free hand. “So lovely. So soft. And look at all the colors.”

The Mistress buried her face in the slave’s neck and bit him. He cried out at the sting and the taking. He’d seen males and females drink from one another before, and it had always seemed…right. But this hurt and made him dizzy, and the harder she pulled at his vein, the more light-headed he became.

He must have passed out, because when he woke up she was lifting her head and licking her lips. She climbed off him, robed herself, and the three of them left him alone in the dark. Moments later guards whom he recognized entered.

The other males refused to look upon him, though he had been on friendly terms with them before because he had rendered them their ale. Now, though, they kept their eyes averted and didn’t speak. As he glanced down at his body, he was ashamed that whatever salve had been put on him was still working, that his private staff was still stiff and thick.

The gloss on it nauseated him.

He desperately wanted to tell the males that it wasn’t his fault, that he was trying to will the flesh down, but he was too mortified to speak as the guards released his arms and ankles from the table. When he stood up he sagged, because he’d been stretched out flat on his back for hours and was only a day past his transition. No one helped him as he struggled to stay upright, and he knew it was because they didn’t want to touch him, didn’t want to be near him now. He went to cover himself, but they shackled him in a practiced manner so he didn’t have a free hand.

The shame got worse as he had to walk down the hall. He could feel the heavy weight at his hips bouncing with his footfalls, bobbing obscenely. Tears welled and slid down his cheeks, and one of the guards snorted with disgust.

The slave was taken to a different part of the castle, to another solid-walled room with inlaid steel bars. This one had a bed platform and a proper chamber pot and a rug and torches set high up on the walls. As he was brought in, so were food and water, the victuals left by a fellow kitchen boy he’d known all of his life. The pretransition male also refused to look at him.

The slave’s hands were released and he was locked in.

Bereft and trembling, he went over to a corner and sat on the floor. He cradled his body gently, for no one else would, and tried to be kind to this newly transitioned form of his…a form that had been used in a way that was so wrong.

As he rocked back and forth, he worried for his future. He’d never had any rights, any learning, any identity. But at least before he’d been free to move around. And his body and his blood had been his own.

The remembered sensation of those hands on his skin brought up a wave of nausea. He looked down at his privates and realized he could still smell the Mistress on himself. He wondered how long the swelling would last.

And what would happen when she came back for him.





Zsadist rubbed his face and rolled over. She’d come back for him, all right. And she’d never come alone.

He closed his eyes against the recollections and tried to will himself to sleep. The last thing that flashed through his mind was a picture of Bella’s farmhouse in its snow-covered meadow.

God, that place was so very empty, deserted though it was filled with things. With Bella’s disappearance it had been stripped of its most important function: Though it was still a sound structure and capable of keeping out wind and weather and strangers, it was no longer a home.

Soulless.

In a way, her farmhouse was just like him.





Chapter Five


Dawn had arrived by the time Butch O’Neal pulled the Escalade into the courtyard. As he got out, he could hear G-Unit bumping at the Pit, so he knew his roommate was in. V had to have his rap music; the shit was like air to him. Said those bass beats helped keep the intrusions of other people’s thoughts down to a manageable level.