Lover Awakened (Black Dagger Brotherhood #3)(103)

And then he realized what he was doing. Was he jerking off? Next to Bella? God, he was a nasty bastard.

Disgusted with himself, he released his hand and started yanking the boxers back up—

“Don’t stop,” Bella said softly.

A frigid blast shot down Z’s spine. Busted.

His eyes went to hers as the blood hit his face.

But she just smiled at him and stroked his arm. “You’re so beautiful. The way you arched just now. Finish it, Zsadist. I know that’s what you want to do, and you have nothing to be embarrassed by. You’re beautiful when you touch yourself.” She kissed his bicep, her eyes going to the tent of his boxers. “Finish it,” she whispered. “Let me see you finish.”

Feeling like an anxious fool, but curiously unable to stop himself, he sat up and got naked.

Bella made a little noise of approval as he lay down again. Taking strength from her, he slowly slid his hand down his stomach, feeling the ridges of his muscles and the smooth, hairless skin that covered them. He didn’t really expect to be able to continue—

Holy shit. The thing was so hard, he could feel his heartbeat drumming through it.

He stared into Bella’s deep blue eyes as he moved his palm up and down. Starbursts of pleasure began to shoot off and flow through his body. God…having her watch worked for him, even though it shouldn’t have. When he’d been watched before—

No, the past was not welcome here. If he lingered on what had happened a century ago, he was going to lose this moment with Bella.

With a shove and a slam he locked away the memories of what had been done to him in front of an audience. Bella’s eyes…see them. Be in them. Drown in them.

Her gaze was so lovely, shining up at him with warmth, holding him as if he were in her arms. He looked at her lips. Her breasts. Her stomach…The gathering need in his blood took a geometric leap, exploding so that every inch of him felt an erotic tension.

Bella’s eyes drifted down. As she watched him work it, she took her bottom lip between her teeth. Her fangs were two little white daggers, and he wanted them in his skin again. He wanted her sucking on him.

“Bella…” he groaned. Fuck, he was really into this.

He cocked one of his legs up, moaning in the back of his throat as he moved his hand faster and then concentrated the motion at the tip. A second later he lost it. He cried out as his head punched back into the pillow and his spine curved up to the ceiling. Warm jets hit his chest and belly, and the rhythmic releases went on for a time as he finished himself off. He stopped when the head was too sensitive to touch anymore.

He was breathing hard and dizzy as hell as he leaned to the side and kissed her. When he pulled back, her eyes showed how clearly she read him. She knew that she’d helped him through this first time. Yet somehow she wasn’t looking at him with pity. She didn’t seem to care that he was a lame-ass who up until now hadn’t been able to bear touching himself.

He opened his mouth. “I l—”

A knock cut off the declaration he had no business making.

“Do not open that door,” he barked, wiping himself off with the boxers. He kissed Bella and pulled a sheet over her before going across the room.

He braced his shoulder against the door, as if whoever was on the other side might crash into the room. It was a stupid impulse, but there was no way anyone was going to see Bella in her postneeding glow. That was for him only.

“What,” he said.

Phury’s voice was muffled. “The Explorer you shoved your phone into moved last night. Went to the supermarkets where Wellsie’s been buying the apples for the solstice festival. We’ve canceled the orders, but we’ve got to reconnoiter. The Brotherhood’s meeting in Wrath’s study in ten minutes.”

Z closed his eyes and leaned his forehead on the wood. Real life was back.

“Zsadist? Did you hear me?”

He glanced at Bella, thinking their time together was over. And going by the way she gathered the sheets to her chin as if she were cold, she knew it too.

God…this hurts, he thought. He actually felt it…hurt.

“I’ll be right there,” he said.

Dropping his eyes from Bella, he turned and headed for the shower.





Chapter Thirty-six


While night fell, O was enraged as he stalked around the cabin and gathered up the ammo he needed. He’d gotten back only a half hour ago, and the last day had been for shit. First he’d gone to the Omega and received one f*ck of a tongue-lashing. Literally. The master had been ripping pissed about the two lessers who had been arrested, as if it were all O’s fault that those incompetents had gotten cuffed and stuffed.

After the Omega was through with his first wave of sharing, the bastard master had pulled the slayers out of the human world, retracting his hold on them as if they were dogs on a leash. Interestingly, it wasn’t that easy for him. Calling members of the Society home was not a flick-of-the-wrist kind of thing, and the weakness was something to remember.

Not that the frailty had lasted. Man, O had no doubt those two lessers were ruing the day they had traded their souls. The Omega had started in on them immediately, and the scene was right out of a Clive Barker movie. And the thing was, the slayers were undead, so the punishment could go on and on until the Omega got bored.

He’d looked very focused as O had taken off.