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If we don’t, we run the very real risk of losing the friendship.

She flashes a brief smile. “Yes. Don’t you think that’s the best way for us to stay in each other’s lives?”

I nod because of course I’ve got to make sure she knows I’m not going to screw this up. I need her to know I can do as asked. “And you need me to help you keep the fact that I can make you come ridiculously hard in one drawer, and that I pay half the rent check in another?”

“And our awesome Scrabble teamwork in one more, please,” she says, laughing. Then her chuckles quiet down. “It’s not easy for me to keep everything on opposite sides. You have to know I’m completely and utterly turned on by you, that you absolutely get bonus points for being great in bed, and you’re my dearest friend, and I think you’re amazing.” I can’t help but grin at the compliments. “And I also can’t bear the thought of losing you.”

A life without Josie sounds like a living hell. “I don’t want to lose you, either.”

“That’s why I need you to be the tough one. You need to be the doctor who rips off the Band-Aid eventually,” she says with a rueful smile.

“Take advantage of the MD, why don’t you,” I grumble, jokingly.

But she’s serious. “I don’t want to be Adele. I don’t want to be gone from your life.” Her voice breaks, and this girl—God, she wears her emotions on her sleeve. She lets them out in the open for me to see. She’s fearless and bold, not just in bed, but right here as she lays her heart on the line.

There’s no tiptoeing around this topic. No doorbell ringing in the middle of a tough conversation, truncating it. Nope. We’re not avoiding the issue—we’re diving into the deep end as Josie opens her heart to me even more.

Everything she does makes me want her, in every way.

“That’s why I think this is the only way to do this,” she adds.

I swallow tightly, remembering the emptiness I felt when Adele moved on. I force myself to recall the hurt of losing someone I cared deeply for. Sure, the lonely nights sucked, but what ached more was the absence of a person I relied on. My friend. “I can’t stand the thought of not being friends with you. We can’t let that happen.”

“I don’t want that to happen, either,” she says, her tone so earnest it hooks right into my chest. “But I also don’t want to get fooled again like I did with Damien.”

I give her a hard stare. “I’m not Damien. That guy surpassed acceptable levels of douchery by a million percent.”

“I know, but it still hurt. I learned my lesson with him, and I want us to be completely clear from the get-go about what this can and can’t be. We have to draw lines. We need to promise that whatever this sex thing is, we go back to being friends when we’re done.”

“Fine,” I say, because that’s what I want. To keep her.

“We just have to accept that we have crazy chemistry from living together, right?”

I nod. Maybe I even punctuate it with a wag of my tongue.

She laughs. “And we need to get that out of our system, right?”

I remind myself that compartmentalization is my special skill. I’ve honed it over the years. I’ve made it a goddamn practice. I take care of the body, and others handle the heart and mind. For once, Josie wants me to lean on my top talent—my ability to separate the physical from the emotional. She wants me to take the best possible care of her orgasms then send her on her way with regular friendship check-ups.

This ought to be easy.

This ought to be easy as pie.

“Josie, we are on the same page,” I say, squaring my shoulders and giving her my best show of confidence. She doesn’t need to know I’m stupidly falling for her. I’ll apply the brakes and stop myself from falling further. This thing between us won’t need to be more than a sweet little tryst with my sexy, gorgeous, daring, wild roommate.

All those strange sensations swarming my chest? Done. I’m giving them the boot. Tossing them out with the trash. See you later, falling in love.

Josie breathes a sigh of relief. “I’m so glad you feel the same way. I’d be so sad if you were out of my life.”

I laugh and cup her cheek. “I’m not going anywhere. I’d never do anything to risk losing you. You’re not just my friend. I hate to break it to Wyatt, but you’re my best friend.”

“You’re mine, too.” She beams. “It’ll be our secret.”

“Like ‘Scotland’s Burning.’”

“Look out, look out,” she sings, and I join in our horrible duet.

When we’re done massacring the song, I hold out a fist for knocking, keeping it all on the level. “We’re roomies with benefits until we get it out of our system.”

She knocks back, and we’re all good now.

Only, I can’t stop. I need to sell this to the judge and jury. I need to be thoroughly convincing so she doesn’t know how close I was to spilling my guts. “And you should totally date,” I add, all nonchalant.

She arches an eyebrow. “I’m not going to date while we’re screwing.”

“But when we’re done,” I add. Like the magnanimous, generous, wonderful friend I am. Who, evidently, likes to state the patently obvious.