Four Roads Cross (Craft Sequence #5)(78)

The door opened a crack, and a red-brown eye peered out. Above that eye stretched a charcoaled forehead, regrown skin wet and tender beneath the blackening and cracks. “Your room is a mess,” he said.

She reached for the burn and he pulled back. “You can come out.”

The crack between door and jamb widened to admit Raz’s whole face. “How can you sleep in here?”

“When I’m tired. I keep the public space clean.”

“I clean the place I sleep.”

“You’re a sailor, and you sleep in a coffin. You don’t have much choice in living arrangements.”

“Or not, as the case may be.” He slid out the door. With one fingernail he peeled back an edge of blackened skin.

She made a face her mom wouldn’t have liked, but to hells with Mom. “Does that hurt?”

“Yeah. Garbage?”

“Under the sink.”

He leaned the can against his leg and deposited charred bits of self inside.

She watched, intrigued at first. “You want coffee?” She caught herself too late. “Habit, sorry.”

“Don’t worry about it.”

“No coffee.” She squeezed past him to the sink and poured water in the kettle. “I never put that one together.”

“Coffee’s one of the few I miss.” Flakes of burned skin made a sound like light rain as they struck the trash bag. “I didn’t notice the first few days of headache. I had a lot of getting used to do, after.” His wave included fangs and all. “Later, withdrawal symptoms were worse. Stabbing muscle cramps in my legs and back. I thought the transformation went wrong. Turns out that’s just the drug leaving your system. Not fair, if you ask me. If a dreamdust addict turns, most of the time she finds someone to share the high. By the time I wake up, most of you have metabolized your caffeine.” His skin was clear, mostly. He returned the garbage can to its cabinet, bent over the sink, splashed hot water on his face, and scrubbed. She’d ground her coffee with a hand mill and dumped the grounds into the press. “Sorry I gave you a hard time about your room. Where I live, you have to tie stuff down.”

The kettle whistled. She plucked it off the burner, waited half a minute, flooded the grounds, and stirred. “I’ve been busy at the office, and getting my act together. Some things slip through the cracks. Plus, I don’t have many guests. Mom and Dad live out in the Fell, and we haven’t spoken in years.”

“No gentlemen callers.”

“No callers, gentlemen or otherwise.”

“Thank you for inviting me to your secret lair.” He leaned against the counter and watched her press the coffee. Flared nostrils invited the aroma, and he exhaled. “I could have found a hotel.”

Light tessellated the coffee’s surface as she poured. “My memory of last night’s hazy.”

“Mine, too,” he said too quickly. “We can just—”

“You drank my blood.”

“A taste, to regain enough strength to move.”

“It felt different.”

“It would.”

“Why?”

“It’s complicated.”

“I want to know.”

He touched his chest. “I need what you have, the way you need air. For most suckers that settles the question. Blood’s a resource, like water or oil, and like water or oil, the people who need it do whatever they need to get it. That attitude ignores the why of the condition.”

“Okay,” she said, meaning, go on.

He did, with arms crossed. “I only know so much theory, but here it is. When you take the curse, it seals your soul and self. The curse stops change. That’s why my hair grows back if it’s burned off, why my muscles don’t tire. But the seal makes it hard to take soulstuff in. Humans, you get paid or eat a good meal or meditate and you draw the world into yourself. We don’t. This is how we refill.” He pointed to his mouth. “The curse is thousands of years older than Craftwork, but the idea’s the same. Imagine if the only way you could connect with the world was to steal it from someone else.”

“But you don’t.”

“I use tricks. The Bounty has its own soul, and we share. There are other ways, which boil down to knowing the other person well, so you can accept and trade, rather than just taking. That’s why it felt different.” He stopped. “Feeding makes a connection between us. The curse wants it to be one-way. I can force it back. At Andrej’s, when you—surprised me, it felt so good, and I wasn’t ready. The curse took over. I freaked out.”

“Then you blamed me for it.”

“That was an * move on my part.”

“Yeah,” she said. “Why fight what you are?”

“Because the curse isn’t me. I’m what I was before, only the curse tries to make me something else. It’s old, and it’s had a lot of time to learn how to make people see other people as food. Most suckers don’t last fifty years. They go mad, or get killed, or sleep their lives away. Or they walk out into the ocean and never come back.”

“I haven’t heard that one before.”

“We don’t talk about it much,” he said. “I don’t like any of those options. I’ve walked the line for decades, but I still slip.”