Final Girls(50)

“Of course we’re upset,” Coop says. “And if we had answers we’d give them to you.”

I turn away, unable to see the earnest way his blue eyes try to offer comfort but reveal only uncertainty. Until today, Coop has always been something solid and strong that I could rely on, even when the rest of my world was tilting into oblivion. Now not even he can make sense of the situation.

“You’re angry,” he says.

“I am.”

“That’s your right. But you shouldn’t worry that what happened to Lisa is going to happen to you.”

“Why not?”

“Because if that was a possibility, Nancy would have told us,” Coop says. “And if I truly thought someone was trying to hurt you, we’d already be on our way out of the city by now. I’d take you so far away from here that not even Jeff would be able to find you.”

He would, too. Of that, I have no doubt. It’s finally the answer I’ve been looking for, and for a moment it’s almost enough to snuff out the anger burning in my chest. But then Coop looks across the table and fixes Sam with a blue-eyed stare.

“You, too, Sam,” he says. “I want you to know that.”

Sam nods. Then she starts to cry. Or maybe she’s been crying for a while and Coop and I just haven’t noticed it. But now she makes sure we notice. When she sweeps her hair off her face it’s impossible to miss the tears slanting down her cheeks.

“I’m sorry,” she says. “This—the whole situation—is really getting to me.”

I stay where I am, trying to discern if Sam’s tears are real, which makes me feel awful for even thinking they might not be. Coop, though, stands and rounds the table, edging toward her.

“It’s okay to be upset,” he says. “This is a bad situation all around.”

Sam nods and wipes her eyes. She stands. She holds out her arms, seeking comfort in the form of an embrace.

Coop obliges. I watch him wrap his bulky arms around Sam and pull her against his chest, giving her the hug I’ve been denied for the past ten years.

I look away. I march into the kitchen. I take another Xanax and begin to bake.





CHAPTER 17


I’m preparing the dough for apple dumplings when Coop finally makes his way to the kitchen. Bowls of ingredients line the counter in front of me. Flour and salt, baking powder and shortening, a bit of milk to mix them with. Coop leans against the doorframe, silently watching me combine the dry ingredients, then the shortening, then the milk. Soon a large ball of dough sits on the countertop, malleable and glistening. I form a fist and give the dough several rough punches, mashing it into an uneven heap.

“Gets the air out,” I say.

“I see,” Coop says.

I continue to punch, the dough bulging beneath my knuckles. It’s only after I feel the smack of countertop beneath it that I stop and wipe my hands.

“Where’s Sam?”

“She went to lie down, I think,” Coop says. “Are you okay?”

I offer a smile stretched as tight as a rubber band on the cusp of snapping apart. “I’m fine.”

“You don’t look fine.”

“Really, I am.”

“I’m sorry we don’t know more about who killed Lisa yet. I know this is hard to deal with.”

“It is,” I say. “But I’ll be fine.”

The mounds of Coop’s shoulders droop, deflating, as if I’ve also punched the extra air out of him. I grab a handful of flour and sprinkle it across the countertop. Then I slap the dough onto it, sending up tiny puffs of white. Rolling pin in hand, I flatten the dough in long, hard strokes. The muscles in my arms tighten with each push.

“Will you put that down and talk to me, Quincy?”

“There’s nothing to talk about,” I say. “Hopefully, they’ll somehow catch whoever did this to Lisa and everything will go back to normal. Until then, I trust you’ll do your best to keep me safe.”

“That’s my plan.”

Coop chucks my chin, just like my father used to do. It was a common gesture when we baked together and I invariably messed something up. Spilling a tide of flour over the rim of a bowl or cracking an egg so poorly that fine bits of shell swam in the yolk. I’d get upset and he’d squeeze my chin between his thumb and forefinger, lifting it and thereby steadying me. Even though it’s now Coop doing the steadying, the effect is the same.

“Thank you,” I tell him. “Truly. I know I can be a handful. Especially on a day like today.”

Coop starts to say something. I hear the pop of tongue on teeth as he opens his mouth, the word just starting to form. But then the front door opens and Jeff’s voice fills the apartment.

“Quinn? You here?”

“In the kitchen.”

Although Jeff is surprised by Coop’s presence, he does a good job of hiding it. I notice only a slight double-take. It lasts barely a second before he comprehends the situation and realizes Coop is here for the same reason he’s come home in the middle of the afternoon with a box of wine and two bags of takeout from my favorite Thai place.

“I left work as soon as I heard the news,” he says as he deposits them in the fridge. “I tried to call but your phone went straight to voicemail.”