Everlasting (The Immortals #6)(36)
You wil always be safe with me.”
I nod. Swal ow hard. Wanting more than
anything to believe him, for his words to be true. But deep down inside I know different.
He’s wrong.
Dead wrong.
He didn’t see what I saw.
Doesn’t know what I know.
Didn’t feel the cold hand of death as it grabbed hold of my flesh and refused to let go.
“Kiss me,” I say, seeing the way his face softens, falsely believing it’s over.
“Kiss me and make me forget. Make it go away,” I urge, knowing this is it, my one and only chance to experience our love in its absolute, truest, deepest form. If I can’t convince him now, wel , then it’s a love I’l never know.
“Kiss me as though we have already taken our
vows. Kiss me as though I am already your bride.”
I loosen the ties of my gown, al owing it to fal away from my body as my gaze holds on his. Aware of his quick intake of breath, his tightening jaw, his widening eyes. Gazing upon me in wonder. Gazing upon me as though he’s never seen anything like it before.
But I know differently. Having heard most of the stories, I’m wel aware that I’m hardly his first. Though not quite a rake like his brother, he’s known to have enjoyed his share of wil ing partners.
But the thought doesn’t bother me. If anything, I find it reassuring. Out of al the girls that he’s been with, out of al the girls he could stil be with, he chooses to be with me, and only me, for as long as our hearts shal continue to beat.
No matter what happens to me, no matter what
the future may bring, I’ve no doubt that in Alrik’s own heart I wil always remain his true intended queen.
“Adelina, are you sure?” he asks, his breath coming faster as my fingers creep toward his shirt with the sole intention of ridding him of it. He’s trying to provide a way out, to spare me from doing something he fears I’l regret. An attempt to do the right thing, to be noble, gal ant, but the words bear no meaning, he’s as eager as I am. I press my finger to his mouth, only to remove it a second later and replace it with my lips. “You were married to me the day I pushed you into the pond, and I was married to you the day you sent me flowers in response. Red tulips. Who would’ve thought?” I smile, pausing long enough for my lips to explore his earlobes, his neck, as my hands roam the glorious expanse of his newly bared chest.
His handsome face hovers before me, as he pushes me back onto the pil ows, back onto our bed, his lips moving over me, kissing every inch of bared skin, kissing me in places I never would’ve imagined. Fingers moving quickly, deftly, removing the sparse layer of clothing standing between us, the task final y completed, he says, “Adelina?”
I nod, having never felt more certain.
Then a kiss.
A sigh.
And there is no going back.
I have done this.
We are doing this.
Our bodies moving together—melded, fused, connected as one.
And it’s every bit as glorious as I dreamed it would be, if not more.
chapter eighteen
“My darling,” Alrik whispers, turning onto his side and peering at me, his sight aided by the stream of light sneaking in through the windows and creeping up from under the door. “Did you sleep?”
I murmur something inconsequential, not
wanting him to know that I didn’t. That I couldn’t risk ruining my perfect night, the love that we made, with yet another dream that heralds the grim reality of what I’l now face.
“How do you feel? Any regrets?” He shoots me
a worried look.
“Regrets?” I shake my head and grin, pressing my lips to his forehead, the place between his brows. Capturing a stray lock of hair in my fingers and smoothing it away from his face to better see him. “What could there possibly be to regret? Are you referring to the second time? Or maybe the third?”
He smiles, maneuvers his body until it’s covering mine once again. “I was thinking more like the fourth?”
“Fourth?” I squint, as though trying to recal . “I don’t seem to remember a fourth? Is it possible I was sleeping?” I bat my eyes flirtatiously, aware of his hands already at work, already warming me, as I lift my arms to his neck and bring him back to me, voice softly teasing when I say, “Perhaps you should refresh my memory…”
When it’s over, he shows me where to wash and dress, shows me the wardrobe stuffed with new gowns he brought just for me. Tel ing me to choose whichever one I want for today’s secret ceremony—
that they’re al beautiful, al elaborate, al appropriate enough for the woman who wil one day be his queen, then he leaves, mounts his horse, and gal ops away. Promising to send a maid to help me dress, something he’d failed to think of before—
promising to return just as soon as al the other lastminute arrangements are taken care of. I take my time washing, marveling at how everything can look the same on the outside, while inside everything’s changed in an irreversible way. No mater what happens from here, at least I now know what it’s like to be loved so ful y, so thoroughly, so utterly and completely, it’s as though the strength of our love has also strengthened me. And that, along with the warm assurance of a freshly drawn bath and a bright and sunny new day, leave me feeling a bit sil y for giving so much credence to last night’s dream.