Cupid's Christmas (Serendipity #3)(54)
In March, a month when she expected the crocuses to pop up from the ground, there was a six inch snowfall and the wind rattled the windowpanes so loudly that sleep became impossible. When it seemed that spring would never arrive, Olivia began to question the emptiness of her life. Three weeks later Herbert went down on one knee and offered out a small velvet box, she nodded and allowed him to slip the diamond ring on her finger.
Olivia was genuinely fond of Herbert and when she promised to marry him it was with the utmost sincerity; but, that was before they started to discuss the aspects of their forthcoming life together. “Won’t it be wonderful,” she said, “we can walk to work together every day.”
Herbert circled his arm around her waist and pulled her to him in a way that tugged her blouse loose from the band of her skirt. “Umm,” he hummed in her ear, making the same sound as a bee when it drains the nectar from a flower. “We’ll do just that,” he cooed, “until you’ve a bun in the oven.”
“Bun in the oven?” she repeated.
Herbert grinned and affectionately patted her stomach. “A baby,” he said, giving her a sly wink, “you know, a little tyke, a Herbert Junior.”
“I know what it means,” she replied testily, “but aren’t you rushing things just a bit?”
It was impossible not to notice the downturn of her mouth, so Herbert smoothed the situation over by claiming he was, of course, referring to such a time as they were ready for the thought of raising a family. He kissed Olivia but when she closed her eyes, there in back of her eyelids was the image of a woman with the look of hopelessness on her face and a bunch of babies clinging to her skirt. Olivia’s eyes popped open and she snapped her head back. “What if I don’t want babies?” she asked rebelliously. “What about my job? There’s a good chance I’ll be promoted to the central office.”
“Babies are something every woman wants,” Herbert said. “It’s the natural way of life. Men work and women have babies.” He gathered her into his arms and held her close. “Don’t worry, sweetheart,” he whispered, “when the time comes you’ll be itching to grab hold of a baby just like every other woman.”
Although she let it go at that, a feeling of uneasiness started to settle in and Olivia couldn’t dismiss it. Three days later she telephoned both of her older sisters and asked if such a thing was true. Yes, indeed, they’d each answered. She then telephoned her mother and asked the same question. “Of course it’s true, sugar,” her mother said. “As a young girl I used to imagine that someday I’d be singing at the Opera House in London, England; but after I married your daddy I got the itch and then along came Robert. The following year it was Albert and after him Bernice.
“But, Mama,” Olivia interrupted, “Didn’t you think you’d missed out on something you truly wanted?”
“Think?” Her mother laughed. “With eight little tykes hanging onto me I didn’t have time to think!”
It seemed that no matter who she asked, it was the same story. “Bounce a baby on your knee and you’ll forget about everything else,” Sara Sue said.
“But,” Olivia questioned, “weren’t you planning to be a newspaper reporter?”
“At one time, maybe,” her friend said, “but once Willie came along…”
As the days went by Olivia started to imagine a heavy weight tugging at the hem of her skirt and at night when she closed her eyes and waited to drift off to sleep she could hear a baby crying. One night she dreamt of sitting at the switchboard with a stomach so large and round that, try as she may, she could not reach across the tandem board far enough to connect a call.
The following Saturday Francine Burnam, who had eight months ago added another one to her litter, stopped in for a visit—accompanied of course by all four children, the youngest of them howling like a banshee. “He’s teething,” Francine apologized and jiggled the baby from one shoulder to the other. Olivia was about to suggest that Alma Porter used a piece of ice to soothe her baby’s gums; but before the words were out of her mouth, Francine, who already looked like a woman on the edge of a nervous breakdown, started to wail. “Oh, Lord,” she flopped down onto the sofa, “what have I let myself get into?”
“The baby crying has probably got you a bit frazzled,” Olivia suggested, “…once his tooth comes in everything will be just fine.”
“Fine?” Francine exclaimed. “Fine? Maybe for you! You’ve got a job where you’re appreciated! Try taking care of four kids and then see how you feel!”
Olivia was taken aback by the outburst. “But, surely Joe helps?” she said.
“Oh, yeah,” Francine answered. “He helps—helps himself to a piece of pie and tells the kids to shut up because the noise is giving him a headache. He’s got a headache—ha, that’s a joke! He’s concerned about his headache; never mind that I’m the one that listens to their carrying on every hour of every day.”
“But…”
“That’s not even the worst of it! Now that he’s got me knocked up with a fifth kid, I find out he’s carrying on with some redhead who works in his office. He bought that little whore a fur coat,” she moaned. “Imagine that! A fur coat, when I’m wearing dresses older than the kids.”