Beneath This Ink (Beneath #2)(33)

“Make sure Hennessy gets the report. I’ll catch up with him later.” Con looked down at me. “I got more important things to worry about right now.”

The bouncer may have smiled, or frowned, or burst into flames for all I knew. Because I didn’t want to break Con’s stare to check.

“Sure thing, boss.”

Con finally looked away and headed into the dimly lit passage.

“Where’s your car?”

“I took a cab.”

“So you did at least one smart thing tonight.”

He shouldered open a door, and the humid night air hit my skin. A single bulb was mounted on the brick wall next to the exit, and the yellow glow glinted off the chrome of Con’s Harley. He settled me on the bike and strapped a helmet to my head. It didn’t occur to me to ask where we were going—because I’d already made my choice tonight when I’d walked out of the house and hopped into a cab waiting at the corner.

Con took his place in front of me and started the bike.

I wrapped my arms around his waist even before he tossed the words “hold on” over his shoulder.

Pressing my cheek against the soft cotton stretched over the hard muscles of his back, I let the vibrations of the bike calm my still-racing heart and focused on the lights rushing past me. When we didn’t head toward Voodoo and Con’s apartment, but away from downtown, I should have been worried. I should have smacked his arm and demanded he tell me where we were going. But I didn’t. I just held on tighter, closed my eyes, and enjoyed the ride.

Because that was exactly what I’d decided to do with Con. Grab hold of this craziness and let myself enjoy life for once without worrying about every which way it could go wrong.

With the exception of following Con home that night two years ago, I’d never stepped off the carefully planned path that was my life. I’d never thrown caution to the wind. Thirty years old, and I’d never done anything else remotely spontaneous and wild. I felt like the clock was ticking—the proverbial sand trickling through the hourglass—and I was letting my life pass me by without doing anything memorable. My greatest fear was waking up, ninety years old, swathed in my lace nightgown, waiting to die and regretting that I hadn’t lived every moment of this life to its fullest.

So right now, when it was the absolute worst time for me to even consider straying from my regimented life—when I had the most to lose—I felt this insane compulsion to take a risk. To jump.

My arms were wrapped around the sole reason for that irresistible insanity.

I did the math in my head. Yep, there’s a strong chance that this is a mid-third life crisis.

When I finally opened my eyes again, my confusion levels hit the red zone. Why would we be here?

Con turned down the driveway of a house that wouldn’t have been amiss in the duPont Registry.

Solar lights highlighted six square columns fronting a wide covered porch that split into two giant curving staircases.

Con pulled the bike between two of the many stilts holding the massive house aloft and killed the engine. Settling it on the kickstand, he climbed off and removed his helmet. I got caught up in watching him and forgot that I should’ve been attending to my own. Not bothering to wait for me to get with the program, once again, Con undid the chinstrap and set it on the seat.

He held out a hand. I didn’t hesitate to take it. I expected him to pull me along behind him, up the stairs and into the house. But he didn’t. He swung me back up into his arms and walked farther under the house until we came out the other side, facing Lake Pontchartrain. He didn’t slow as he walked down the dock to a pavilion and settled me on a wooden Adirondack chair. He hit a switch and tiny twinkle lights came to life.

“Shit. Should’ve taken you inside where we had more light. Need to make sure you’re not hurt.”

“I’m not hurt. I’m fine. Just…a little shaken up, I guess.”

Con’s posture changed immediately. “Good, then I don’t need to hold back when I ask you just what the f*ck you think you were doing coming to my club?” He jammed his fingers into his hair and tugged outward, giving him a wild and crazed…and incredibly sexy look.

“Well? Because it better be good. So f*cking good that I can’t even fathom a reason good enough that you’d walk your ass into a place like that.” He turned and paced toward the other end of the pavilion. “Jesus. You could have been recognized. Didn’t you even think about that?”

Con’s pacing continued as I debated how to answer his question.

I went with the truth.

“I don’t know. I guess I wasn’t really thinking.”

He spun and faced me. “That’s your answer? You weren’t thinking? You’re always f*cking thinking.”

I pushed off the chair so I didn’t feel quite so much at a disadvantage. Hands fisted on my hips, I said, “Maybe I don’t want to think anymore. I said I was ready to jump. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it. So I guess that’s what I was doing. I just wanted to live for once in my life without considering every potential outcome.”

Con stepped toward me, arms crossed over his chest. “And so you decided to live a little by coming to my strip club. How in the f*ck did you even know about it?”

I looked down at the planks of weathered wood beneath our feet. Lucas Titan’s taunt as I’d left the board meeting echoed in my head. “Bet you wouldn’t be so eager to f*ck a guy like Leahy if you knew he spent most of his time staring at tits and ass at his club.”