Beneath These Scars (Beneath #4)(58)

Latching onto another subject far removed from the explosion, I stared pointedly in Lucas’s direction. “And you’re not going to pull any strings to help me. I don’t care if you’re on the board of that fund. You’re going to hand my file back over and take yourself out of all the discussions. You can’t be impartial, and that’s not fair.”

I expected him to scowl or tell me I was being ridiculous. But instead he just laughed, something he did rarely enough that I had to stop and enjoy the unique sound—a sexy-as-hell husky, deep chuckle.

When he stopped, a mocking smile played on his lips. “What makes you think anything that happens in the business world, or life for that matter, is impartial and fair? People get ahead based on who they know, not how good they are. Do you know how many applications the fund gets a month? Hundreds. You know how many grants it gives? A handful. You deserve one of them, and I’m not saying that just because I’m f*cking you. I’m saying it because you’re damn good at running the place. You’ve got the owner mentality, and now you need the capital.”

“I know that,” I said, inwardly glowing at his compliment. “But it doesn’t mean I want any favors.”

Lucas shook his head, and I decided now was an ideal time to end this conversation by walking out the door. I reached the threshold before his hand wrapped around my arm.

“You’re still not going to work.”

I swung around. My feelings toward him might be confusing as hell, but one thing I knew for sure—I needed him to respect me.

“You really need to stop ordering me around. I need to be busy. I’m not going to sit around here all day and relive the whole thing. I’ll—” I squeezed my eyes shut, shocked when my voice started to break.

Lucas’s chest pressed to mine. Safety. Strength. I felt both as soon as he wrapped his arms around me.

“That’s why we’re not going to sit around here. We’re going out.”

I opened my eyes and lifted my gaze to meet his. “In these clothes?”

“Don’t worry about that.” His thumb smoothed over the skin of my arm. “I’ll make sure you’re covered.”

Lucas watched me silently. He and I were both so damn stubborn. I would push and he would push back. But who would give?

For the first time in a long, long time, I could admit to myself that I didn’t want to make all the decisions, didn’t want to have to be so strong. The fight drained out of me.

“Okay. Let’s go.”

Lucas nodded and slid his palm down my arm to lock his fingers with mine. “Good. You’ll like this.”





THE SHELL DRIVE CRUNCHED UNDER the tires as Lucas guided the Aston up what seemed like a mile-long stretch of twists and turns. Huge oaks shaded it from the sun, and a sprawling plantation house, one that could have been a replica of Margaret Mitchell’s Tara, sat at the end.

“What is this?”

“An investment I’m considering.”

“You brought me to look at a multi-million dollar house?” I asked. I looked down at my clothes in horror. “In these?”

Lucas shook his head and drove a few hundred yards past the house before stopping in front of stables that most people would have been happy to live in. “I brought you here to ride. There are plenty of clothes inside. All different sizes, as they’re used to having guests come out for riding parties.”

I surveyed the stables with skepticism. “I’ve never been on a horse before. Ever.”

He flashed a grin at me. “Then I guess you’ll be so busy worrying about staying on that you won’t have time to think about anything else.”

His meaning was obvious. “A plan for an effective distraction.”

“Of course.”

“Then let’s see this place?” I said, pushing the door open and climbing out.

Holy. Wow. There was rich, and then there was rich. Lucas led me past stall after stall constructed of ornately carved dark wood—all empty.

“Horses to fill all of these come with the place?” I asked, intending the question as a joke.

Lucas squeezed my hand, which he’d taken as soon as we’d gotten out of the car. “Yes, actually. They’re a big part of the reason I’m considering buying it.”

My mouth barely stayed closed, saving my jaw from dragging on the floor. I did a quick count of the stalls we’d walked by. “You’re not serious. That’s so much work. I mean, they’re amazing, but damn.”

Lucas’s laugh echoed off the stamped concrete floor and the tall, stained-wood ceilings. “And that’s the beauty of having full-time grooms and stable hands. With this many animals, you really have no choice. It’s in the best interest of the animals, not just the owners.”

If this barn were full, that would be a lot of horses. “Is there a reason they have so many?”

Before he answered my question, we reached a room at the end of the aisle and a boy, probably around eighteen or so, stepped out.

“Welcome back, Mr. Titan.”

Lucas shook his hand. “Good to see you, Chris. Can you tack up two mounts? Titan, and one that would be suitable for a beginner?”

The boy, Chris, looked at me as if sizing me up. He said nothing about my unconventional outfit. “Sure thing. No problem. I’ll go round them up while you two change. Let me know if you need anything else.”