Arcana Rising (The Arcana Chronicles #4)(54)

“The game spools on.” Deep in her abyss, Circe spun a finger, and a whirlpool circled here.

Ever since my grandmother had told me to look for symbols, I’d been seeing them everywhere. Infinity symbols. A bow. A jagged fracture of rock like a lightning bolt.

A vortex.

I recalled my dreams: When the Magician had created that infinity symbol for Fauna, there’d already been one in that scene. Behind the two of them, the lions’ long tails had curved over each other, making two perfect loops.

Patterns continued to appear before my eyes. Circe’s whirlpool was like a helicopter’s tailspin on its way down. Or a carousel that would never spin backward again. Like a tourniquet twisting.

“But for how long?” she murmured, and her whirlpool tightened.

“Has any game lasted more than a couple of years?”

“What you really want to know is whether you have any time left to let go. To accept ten swords in your back and still rise. To live. Ask the question, and I’ll answer.”

I had to clear my throat to say, “Do I have any time left?”

“Even if you had a mere hour, you should rise.” Her eyes seemed to glow like phosphorescence. “Emotions are like tides. While you wait for your grief to ebb, Death is being carried farther and farther from you. Soon he’ll be out of your reach forever.”

Panic flared. “I’m the only one he can touch. He has to want me.” Just as Gran had said.

“Stupid, Empress!” In her temple, Circe clenched her trident.

From the river, a wave rose up in the form of a hand, poised to slap me. I scrambled back. “What?”

The wave dissipated, and her water window dissolved, merging with the surface. “You can always bed him,” she whispered, her voice fading. “But with each hour, his heart grows as cold as his sword.”

Aric was strangling his heart as well.

Alone, I stared at the river and recalled his words from the night before my decision: “By all the gods, I desire you, but you must know that you have my love. It’s given, sievā. Wholly entrusted to you. Have a care with it.”

Yet I hadn’t.

He believed that if we slept together—if we took that step—I’d finally be his. For the last two millennia, he’d taken me to bed again and again, only to have his hopes crushed each time.

And not just in the distant past. A few months ago, we’d been on the verge, but I’d balked because of a lack of protection—and my love for another man. Before I escaped him last, I’d knocked Aric out with a drug from my lips—while in bed with him. He’d thought I’d been trying to murder him once more. With his eyes devastated, he’d said, “You’d kill me before you ever accepted me.”

Why wouldn’t he turn his heart from me? If I went to him with another empty promise, I would lose him.

A life with him had seemed so complicated, so loaded with intrigues. But now the idea of us growing old together seemed laughable. Did my concerns about Death’s deal with Lark no longer factor?

I had learned my painful lesson: Some fates can’t be changed.

Shouldn’t that lesson apply to everything? If I was fated to be with Aric, then maybe Death was inevitable. In every sense.

On my way back up to the castle . . . snow began to fall.





33


The Hunter


Closer to her . . .





I was freezing cold, but sweat slicked the truck’s vinyl bench. Fever blazing? My mouth was so dry, my head splitting. My lungs rattled. I shook, rocking uncontrollably.

None of that mattered, no, ’cause I could see Evie. Pretty blue eyes and curving lips.

She liked to take care of me, fussing over me. Ma belle infirmière. I could see her so clearly that she had to be here with me; I could even smell her honeysuckle scent. “Evie, bébé . . . that really you?”

The truck slammed to a stop. Matthew’s door opened. Then my door opened? He hauled me into a sitting position.

Evie wasn’t here. Gutted, me. I squinted, saw snow coming down.

Did it snow wherever she was? Could she be thinking about me? I would do anything to see her again.

Just once.

“Your future refuses to behave.” Coo-y?n yanked off the jacket he’d sourced for me. Up was down. Then he stepped back. And released me— I toppled over, falling out of my seat onto the ground. Was the sosie dumping me on the side of the road? ’Cause I was about to die? “Now, let’s just talk . . . ’bout this, coo-y?n.”

He caught hold of my good ankle, then dragged me farther away from the truck. He’d hauled me into . . . a bank of snow.

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The Empress


Jack and I had marveled at the snow. I spun in circles as flakes fell, dizziness overwhelming me.

I’d known this was going to send me spiraling. Gasping for breath, I collapsed, tears streaking down my face.

Lark’s animals fell silent. The river’s current stilled. The better to hear my sobs. I missed Jack so much; I missed Aric so much. I cried for them both.

The skies opened up with an intense shower of snow, till it’d painted the ground white.

“Isn’t it amazing?” I’d told Jack that last day. “Everything looks clean.”