Any Time, Any Place (Billionaire Builders #2)(88)

Like now.

He heard the hiss of water hitting tile, and he cursed viciously, trying to slap Cal away. “I’ll kill you both! You have no right to come in my room, so get the—agh, fuck!”

The icy spray hit him straight in the chest, and he howled. They kept him in there, forcing him to wash the stink of alcohol and heartbreak from his skin. When he was finally clean, they shoved a towel at him and marched out of the bathroom to wait.

More clearheaded, he took off after them in self-righteous fury. “I’m not a kid any longer, assholes. If I choose to sleep off a hangover in my room, you have no right to come in here.”

“We do if it’s been two full days. You haven’t been to work. You don’t answer your phone. Morgan’s knocked plenty of times, and she got frantic. What if you had done something to yourself in here?” Cal shouted.

“I told you I was sick! I think I got the flu from Sydney.”

“Bullshit,” Tristan called out. “I’ve seen downward spirals before, but this one’s epic. You broke up with Raven, realized you love her, and don’t know how to handle it.”

The anger drained away, leaving him empty again. “Doesn’t matter anymore. It’s over.”

He walked out to the balcony. Looked up. The horizon shone a happy, bright blue, with fat, fluffy clouds floating past in a graceful dance of earth and sky. Bees hummed. The sun warmed his skin. And inside, his heart cried out for the woman who was his other half, even though he’d pushed her away in self-righteous pride and anger.

Tristan and Cal followed him out and flanked him. He pushed back his wet hair, and they all stared together at the view in silence.

“It does matter, Dalton. We tried to give you space, but now it’s time to deal. Do you want Raven back?”

Yes. Somehow, over the past two days of trying to forget, he’d realized his heart wasn’t as coldly clinical as his brain. He missed her. Needed her. The raw emotion in her inky eyes when she’d spotted him with Charlie told him the truth. She’d never wanted to hurt him. She wouldn’t be able to fake such need and grief and pain, all nakedly revealed when their gazes locked. And sometime last night, he’d come to the only conclusion left.

He needed to make things right between them, because he couldn’t let her go.

“Yes.”

“You love her, don’t you?” Cal asked. Dalton couldn’t speak, so he just gave a ragged nod. “Why don’t you try to talk to her?”

Dalton dropped his face into his hands. “Because I already did.” He dumped out the whole story, including meeting Charlie at the bar. “Too much has happened now. I was so angry and sick at the idea she had played me. I wanted to hurt her like she did me. How screwed up am I?”

Tristan sighed. “You just made mistakes, like Raven did. Problem is you’re so hotheaded, you do things without thinking them through sometimes.”

“I hurt people.”

Cal squeezed his shoulder. “We all do. I walked out on Morgan when she needed me the most. But she forgave me.”

“I did something horrible to Sydney,” Tristan finally said. “I never said I was sorry, either. It still haunts me.”

“We fuck up. We’re men. It’s what we do about it afterward to try to make it right that counts. To try not to hurt the people we love again. Remember what Mom used to say?”

“?‘Forgiveness is so much stronger than hate,’?” Dalton said slowly.

“Have you really forgiven her, Dalton?”

He thought about Raven. The way she’d confessed the truth with a raised chin and determination in her face. The way she’d loved him, and held him, and squeezed him into her body like she never wanted to let him go. She’d made mistakes, too, but had she truly lied about the way she felt about him? The agony on her face would haunt him forever. Didn’t you have to love someone to allow them to hurt you that deeply?

The answer came up from within the deep, dark place inside. “Yes. I really have forgiven Raven.”

“No. Not Raven. That’s not where the real problem lies.”

“What are you talking about?”

Cal gazed at him with worried, gentle eyes. “I’m asking if you can forgive Mom. For leaving you. For dying.”

He flinched. The words slapped and bruised. He tried to bury it, but there was too much that had come to the surface.

Cal continued. “You were the youngest, and I think you were hit the hardest. Tristan and I were better established with who we were and what we wanted to do. You were still figuring things out. But I swear, you were her favorite. Sometimes I’d watch you together while you talked, and this peace would come over you, as if she was the only one who was able to reach you. I saw that again when you were with Raven.”

Tristan’s voice came from afar. “Cal’s right. It took me a while to accept what happened with the accident, but I got there. Especially this past year. I feel like we found each other again.”

“Raven forgave her father, and that’s why she’s able to really love you. You won’t ever be free until you do the same.”

Dalton stared at his brothers. The realization pierced through him like a sword, striking deep and true. He was right. It had been Mom all along. If he believed Raven, he’d have faith Mom had planned on coming back and would never have left him behind. Wasn’t it time to allow that possibility to heal him? Hadn’t he carried the secret guilt of anger and pain at her betrayal for way too long?