Angles of Attack (Frontlines #3)(18)

“Yeah, that shit is for the birds,” she says. “I never did have the slightest desire to go fleet. All those idiot nuggets in boot, hoping for a navy slot. Space is awful business.”

“It has its moments. First time I looked at Earth from orbit, it damn near blew my mind. The scale of it, you know? And it looked so peaceful. You realize just how stupid it all is. Us, the SRA, the welfare rats, trying to kill each other, when we’re all just a bunch of ants hurtling through space on this little piece of rock and water.”

“Damn, Andrew.” Sergeant Fallon shakes her head and smiles again. “You’re too smart by half to be in the soldiering business.”

She takes a swig from her drink and makes a grimace.

“But you’re a good soldier,” she says. “You were a good soldier from day one at Shughart. Scared like the rest of them, but saddling up and doing what you’re supposed to. And you’ve never been a mindless trigger puller. I knew that you were still the same kid who felt awful after Detroit when you threw in your lot with our little rebellion. Maybe that makes you a better soldier than me, because I’ve mostly lost the ability to feel awful about any of this.”

The PDP in my pocket chirps a notification alert. I pull it out and look at the screen.

“MetSat update,” I tell Sergeant Fallon. “Fair-weather window in ninety-one minutes. I guess I better get my gear and head over to the airfield.”

I push my drink aside and get up. Sergeant Fallon does likewise. She puts one hand on my shoulder and studies me at arm’s length. Then she pulls me into a brief but firm one-armed hug and lets me go as quickly as she initiated the contact.

“I’m not going to get all squishy on you, but see that you don’t get yourself killed,” she says. “World’s a shitty place, but it’d be a fair bit shittier without you in it.”

I smile at her. “That’s by far the squishiest thing you’ve ever said to me.”

We part without further words, without any melodramatic last salutes. I just leave the bar to get my gear, and turn around at the entrance hatch of the bar to look back at my old squad leader. She’s sitting down again, one hand on her drink, and she meets my gaze. I raise a hand briefly to give her a casual little two-finger wave. She nods at me, and the expression on her face is her usual facade of mild, detached amusement, but her eyes convey emotions we wouldn’t be able to fit into five minutes of extended emotional good-byes.

Fair winds and following seas, my friend.

I return her nod and turn to leave On the Rocks, likely for the last time in my life.



There’s a tunnel that leads from the Ellipse straight to the airfield on the other end of New Longyearbyen. It’s a kilometer and a half, an easy walk on level ground, and I walk out toward the airfield in no particular hurry. When I am a third of the way down the tunnel, I hear the hum of an electric ATV coming up behind me, and I turn around to see Chief Constable Guest rolling up.

“Saw you on the security feed,” he says as he comes to a stop next to me. “Want a ride?”

“Sure,” I say. “Thanks.”

I take my kit bag off my shoulder and dump it into the cargo basket of the ATV. Then I take the passenger seat behind the constable, and he puts the vehicle back into motion.

“Figured you’d stop by the office to say good-bye,” he says over his shoulder.

“I was thinking about it, but I’m already kind of a mess as it is,” I say. “There’s a lot riding on this mission.”

“Tell me about it. I’ve got two girls and a wife down here on our little frozen paradise. If you don’t come back with a road map for all those troops to go home again, we’re about to have a very bad winter, and it’ll be our very last one.”

“I’ll do my best to see that it won’t be,” I say.

“I have no doubt that you will. But it’s not entirely up to you, is it?”

“It’s not even mostly up to me. I’ll just be another little cog in the wheel again.”

“Well, be a really good cog, then. I almost envy you in a way, you know.”

“How so?” I laugh. “You want to go in my place?”

“I would if I had the expertise. Beats having to wait and watch, and not being able to do anything to influence the outcome.”

“What are you going to do if we don’t come back?” I ask.

Constable Guest is quiet for a little while. The hum from the electric motor reverberates from the concrete walls, and the fat tires of the ATV whisper on the floor slabs as we trundle through the sparsely lit tunnel at a fast trotting speed.

“I’ll hole up with my family,” he finally says. “Down here in the tunnels. Stockpile whatever supplies we can, and try to make it stretch. Hoping someone’s going to come and resupply us before all the food runs out. As long as I can keep them alive, there’s always hope.”

I’ve been to Constable Guest’s office a few times, and I remember the pictures of his daughters he keeps on a shelf behind his desk. His girls are still young, in their early teenage years. He told me that they were born on Earth, but they’ve been here on New Svalbard since before they could form coherent memories of the old home. This is the only world they’ve known, and if we fail to find a way home for all those troops that are consuming the resources of the ice moon just to stay alive, then they’ll never know anything else. They’ll die with their parents, down here in these cheerless tunnels with their bare concrete walls and unpainted laminate steel doors, and the whole town will be buried under ice and forgotten, a very minor footnote in humanity’s short history. It’s a harsh life in the colonies, but it’s their only life, and I feel shame for having contributed to the very likely possibility that these girls and everyone else here will die. I didn’t have any influence on the military’s decision to come here and dump seven thousand extra mouths to feed onto this world, but I can try to help get them out of here again. It’s a much better use for all my training than killing Chinese or Russian marines over yet another untamed piece of rock circling some faraway sun.