Accidentally on Purpose (Heartbreaker Bay #3)(85)

“She’s not at her office,” Spence said.

“Nor at home,” Kylie said. “I went by there.”

Archer leaned back and closed his eyes to think. Clearly she’d wanted to be alone. Why? To lick her wounds. She’d never liked an audience when she was hurting or feeling vulnerable. He had no doubt that wherever she was, she was holed up by herself, thinking too hard. Which would lead to bad memories from the past, their past, probably all the way back to when this whole thing had started, and just like that he knew. “I know where she is,” he said, straightening in his seat. “But I’ve got a detour to make first.”

Half an hour later, just as the sun was setting, Archer directed Spence to the park where he’d first met Elle that long ago fateful night.

“There,” Willa said as they parked, pointing to the battered playground that included monkey bars, a swing set, and a slide attached to a jungle gym. The grass had died long ago, if there’d ever been any in the first place, leaving overgrown weeds.

A figure sat on one of those two swings, a curvy, beautiful blonde overdressed for the neighborhood. Possibly the first person to ever sit on one of those swings in four-inch heels.

It was almost funny to him that he’d warned himself not to fall for her because his life was so dangerous, when the truth was that her life had sometimes been much more dangerous than his.

His heart had been sitting heavily in his gut ever since he’d realized she’d taken off on him and it didn’t go back to its designated spot in his chest now either. She’d had a messed-up childhood but in spite of that, or maybe because of it, she’d become the most amazing woman he’d ever met. He’d tried to tell himself that she wasn’t for him, that she deserved far better, and that was all still true.

But he didn’t want to let her go.

He got out of the truck and turned back when he heard everyone else shift to get out as well. “Stay,” he said.

“But—”

“But—”

“But—”

He held up his good hand. “I’ve got this.”

“You sure?” Willa asked doubtfully.

No. And actually, he’d never been less sure of anything in his life. “I have to do this alone.”

They all nodded reluctantly.

“I’ll call you when I need a ride back,” he said.

“It’s kinda cute that he thinks we’re leaving, isn’t it?” Willa asked Spence.

“Yeah, but is it cute or delusional?” Spence asked.

“Both,” Pru said. “With more than a touch of ego.”

Taking in a deep breath, Archer turned and walked across the sand pit and grass, heading toward the swings.



Elle saw him coming and braced herself. She’d come out here to remember. To think. To put things in perspective, but although she’d been here a while, she hadn’t been succeeding at any of it. Not until Archer had shown up with the cavalry, whom he’d apparently told to stay put.

And of course they had.

They loved him. They’d do anything for him, including—she thought a little darkly—help him find her.

She couldn’t be mad. She’d needed this, needed him to come after her.

She had to admit to herself she was impressed that he’d located her. But then again, when Archer wanted something, he was doggedly determined, and against all the odds, he wanted her. She knew that much. Just as she knew she’d run scared. It’d never been about her doubting him. It was her doubting herself. She had no track record at this love game and it terrified her how much power her feelings for Archer held over her.

He didn’t attempt to get on the swing next to her but sat on the bench facing her, looking pale and shaky, making her heart squeeze.

“Are you okay?” she asked.

“No. My arm and shoulder are on fire and my balance is shit.” He paused and let out a low laugh. “But just the sight of you has me finally breathing again, so there’s that. Will you sit with me, Elle? And notice that I asked, because you like to be asked, not told. See? Learning new tricks.”

She smiled at that, but he didn’t. “We need to talk, Elle.”

Her smile faded. Nothing good had ever come from those four words. “I don’t have anything to say.”

“That’s okay, I do.” He patted the bench with his good hand.

She hesitated but she did move to the bench. Not within touching distance though. She wouldn’t be able to think if he touched her. She met his gaze. His color was really off and so was his breathing. “You shouldn’t be out here, Archer, you should be resting.”

“I needed to see you.”

She shook her head, throat tight. “You watched over me for eleven years. Your duty is done.”

“This wasn’t about duty. I meant everything I said to you, everything, even when I didn’t know I was saying it. But when I asked you to leave my hospital room, it was because I was embarrassed for you to see me and my dad go at each other. I meant for you to leave the room, not my life.”

“I figured that out,” she said. “But it occurred to me that I was in deep with you, that I wanted to be in even deeper, and that scared me. I’m still not sure what you really want from me.”

“A lot,” he said. “But I’ll start with a promise to stop saying stupid shit to you if you promise to toss out all the stupid shit I’ve already said.”