Borderline (The Arcadia Project, #1)(108)
“But you’re alone.”
“I’m thinking of getting a cat. Seriously, I want to try living a normal life. If I come back, I want it to be because I chose it.”
Caryl regarded me for a moment. “If you choose the Arcadia Project,” she said, “you will be the first.”
“Well, I’m pretty special.”
“Yes, you are.” There was no emotion behind the words; she must have had Elliott out. Still, it shut me up for a second.
“You know what they say,” I said briskly then over the urge to cry. “If you love something, set it free.”
Her mouth curved up in a bland little smile, and she reached out, giving my hand a single squeeze with her black silk glove before letting it go. “Good-bye,” she said. “I’ll contact you if we hear from Claybriar.”
I watched her walk away down the sidewalk, and a little voice told me I wasn’t going to be anybody’s secretary for very long. Once you’ve seen the world through fey glasses, for better or for worse it never quite looks the same again.
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Because this book was begun with no expectation of success, it had a long, fragmented path to completion. Without a doubt, I’ve forgotten some of the people who made it possible.
A dedication isn’t enough to acknowledge the contribution of Paul Briggs, who single-handedly led me through the first draft by dangling the carrot of positive feedback, two thousand words at a time. The world is dimmer for his unexpected loss, seven months after holding in his hands the book he helped to create.
A character namesake isn’t enough to acknowledge Amanda C. “Dr.” Davis, the first person brave enough to tell me why that first draft drove thirteen other beta readers into hiding. Without her, the book would still being a drawer somewhere.
A paltry percentage isn’t enough to acknowledge my agents, Russell Galen and Rachel Kory, for taking a chance on a newcomer and aiming higher than I’d have dared. And there isn’t praise enough in the world for Navah Wolfe at Saga Press, whose perfect combination of fannish enthusiasm and surgical precision turned that stack of pages on her desk into a novel. In my wildest dreams I could never have imagined better synergy with an editor.
And Seanan McGuire! Good heavens. Still staggered by the unexpected outpouring of support from someone I’d only ever known as a name on my bookshelf. I think we’re doomed to be come either great friends or deadly nemeses.
There are many others who have made this book possible indirectly by propping me up when I faltered professionally or personally—too many to name, but I’ll try a few. My husband, Matt, of course, everyday. Wren Wallis, partner in many things. Paul Park, Kim Stanley Robinson, Kenneth Schneyer, Shauna Roberts, Scott H. Andrews, Ferrett Steinmetz, Mary Robinette Kowal, Myke Cole, Joe Monti, Michael R. Underwood, Charles Coleman Finlay, Sunil Patel, Nate “Frog” Crowley, Jason Gruber, Sarah Goslee, Stephanie Gunn, Rachel Hartman, and Guy Gavriel Kay. (Some of you may not even know exactly why your names are on this list, because many of you are so in the habit of giving that you may not remember small gestures that, to me, meant all the world.)
Thank you, all of you, and to those I’ve forgotten: don’t let me. Hound me, throw yourselves in my path. I’ll find ways to thank you too.